Long Awaited Reunion

Reunions can suck, like school reunions; mine always sucked hard. 

But, one among friends I’ve not been able to see since 2011-2012 last time I was in Thailand studying here I made a handful of good friends only sad part; scattered all over the world T__T USA to Japan to Thailand, freakishly far apart.

So we all came together during the holiday season, celebrated New Years, dining out and catching up. Funny to me how everyone had not changed a bit but, I had not only changed in appearance, mentally too. 

Yeah I might just be a 19 year old girl (turning 20 soon..) though my friends on the other hand are at a minimum 5 years older than me (and that is the youngest one of them) I actually felt older than them, I managed to stay extremely quiet and just look from the side lines..

I’m kind of like that among friends observing other’s fun times and just fill in, not in a bad way though!
I enjoy it too, seeing other people have fun.

Here’s some pictures of jolly friends and food C: 

Actually had nice when I left the apartment..died on the way ; w ; )9 Excuse long retarded fingers. lol

Having a blast after eating a yummy Thai Lunch at Central World! After that we went for Japanese dessert, After You where they specialize in Shibuya Honey Toast, delicious beverages like tea and coffee + awesome cakes! We all shared a Honey Toast My first time; pretty alright :DD and Chocolate Lava, I'm not a cake/dessert fan though I'm letting myself indulge on these rare creatures (rare to me) and have to admit these were pretty delicious and worth a cramping stomach ache.

Yumi and Pie went to pray at the shrines outside of the mall, both very famous; 1st one is for business, school etc "life" 2nd one is the "Single's Temple" where single people pray for luck in love and to get a partner, pretty funny knowing Yumi had been dating 8 guys in 1 year and still couldn't get a steady boyfriend. And really wants to start a family within 2014..

She went to the "gods"  ≧ヮ≦ 

The "business" / Life shrine

Pie and Yumi with their offerings

The "Love" Shrine

Done with the prayer = Happy Yumi

Thanks for reading!! 

(●´□`) ㅋㅋㅋ got mail.

This morning I got a obnoxious wakeup call from our slightly beloved mailman! (But, it was actually a woman lol) Normally my mother would be twisting my neck and my low-life existence for buying things on the Internet; especially if it is a wig. kidding actually, everything that comes in form of a mailbox or whatever is like BANNED

I purchased an orange wig with 2 attachable pigs tails; the wig is straight styled and the pig tails are curly. The fiber of the hair is simply put "Japanese fabric". The ebay seller is located in Hong Kong, this is the first time I've bought a wig from Hong Kong and I had no expectations what so ever. but it was PRICEY so I did not WANT anything to happen with it.  

The package came as a big envelope, lots of tape and more tape. Not the best but, thankfully nothing could be 'broken'

They have their own website; Wig Is Fashion Also if you like their FB page, email them, they'll provide you 5% discount on ONE of your items (highest of value) or your order - read in small below Get An Extra 5% Discount*

 

 

It cost me like 25.30US I feel horrible I've never spent that much on a wig but, then again never bought a wig with pig tails and it was in the only color + design I needed for my cosplay below.

If no one can guess, it's the girl with orange hair~ Anime: Ao No Hana.

 I went into to Horsens today (the closest city to me with a train station, fufufu) to get my eyes checked also supposed to buy makeup remover and facial lotion!!! ARGH MOM YOUUUUUU   

Handed in my Canon HD video camera as well, luckily I still have insurance on it so hopefully Canon can fix it! if not gimme a new one bitches. I will be praying ヽ(〇･△･)人(･△･〇)ﾉ mmm
It was literally cold as fuck and I totally regret leaving my jacket in the car believing I would withstand the "cold" because it wasn't windy - till I got the f- outta the car (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡 ┻━┻
After getting examined, got some trail lenses (more expensive as well, but supposed to be better for my eyes.. (ಠ___ಠ) and then I waited for my mom to come back, and waited etc, she never showed, I tried to walk to the car park (free parking, lol) where she SAID she would be - no she wasn't, I decided I couldn't just take a bus home (key-less) so I walked all the way to the trainstation to use the payphone to call her for 10kr! OUTRAGEOUS; she was still packing at Kvickly even though she told me she would move the fucking car (ಠ___ಠ) I found her in the end, lol, hopeless lost child. I guess I've been away for so long I get lost my mother now, wtf. It was really crowded today since Metallica is having a concert today/night frankly I dunno when just today and people were pre-gamin' a lot on the streets and it had traffic on hold for like evaaaaaaa.

Got batteries finally! But, sadly not in the right size for my panda speakers I got from Kenta (that wants to be censored on all"retarded"  pictures of him, lol) ..

Today's view from my window!

"Hello~" lol, jk. My old digital camera is working now! Luckily it wasn't damaged after all of these years.

So here's a few pictures from today, probably also for the rest of the next couple of weeks.. haha

I know it's messy but, I'm building up something for me to do later, hahaha

Learning to focus with the digital camera, ps. Isn't the speaker adorable?!

So instead of 175kr pr month for my previous ones to these "so-much-better" DD Comfort 1Day lenses to 248kr pr month, I know it's not "that much" but, the sound of something below 200 was more in my favor since I still haven't had the opportunity to actually get a job ; __ ;

New strength: -2.75 darm.

Gotten addicted to Snapple (Heavenly Lemonade) !! Love the cute little facts in the lids (ﾉ･ω･)ﾉ

 And as a souvenir I promised the lovely not to mention handsome (!!) Nani, here's a small preview of your Kpop-Thailand gift bag from me dear~ Mini Taemin key-chain-thingy-I-have-no-idea lol

Tomorrow my friend, Misato from Japan, who's currently in England right now with her twin sister; Misaki, is coming to Denmark to visit me!! I'm so happy and excited I cannot describe in a simple manner it at all!! I'll pick her up at the airport tomorrow at around 7PM and then we'll have a nice cozy hangout weekend till she has to leave again on the 9th, but I'm happy she actually came to Denmark just to see me, feeling so special, yes yes~ (ﾉゝ∀･)ﾉ*:･☆

Love you all ♡ peace

Will I ever adjust ★

"At this point, I frankly I have no idea if I can." 

- By me, not so long ago.

Stepping that little random scribble aside, I am as known before, in Denmark with much more time on my hands than this entire year I've been "gone" I've been thinking as probably more than usual. since it's so funny how I have no Internet and I have to TAKE others.. ew 

I made the decision that I will (only) stay in Denmark for another 2 years, why - you may ask or not I shall tell you that!

I just don't feel like I can make a home here in Denmark

It never felt right to me, but I never thought I could
leave this ice cold water pit on the surface of earth place.

Till I did.

Let me tell you a little other truth, I actually don't like it here, Denmark, I don't like it, it's just not a place for me - to me I think I would better off mentally, probably also physically in another country. I wouldn't say, whichever or wherever will do, it's not like that (had a minor fight on skype with an IDIOT about "going everywhere" my ass I haven't gone everywhere you jerk!) Of course I need to finish my ground (basic) education first, not to mention something along the lines of University.

I'm not running away from my responsibilities not that I have any OTL not fearing of becoming a failure without "proper" educational background. as other retards put it, screw you I HAVE MONEY BITCH, jk 

*coughcough* I want to have a taste of living in a country I always loved and wanted to live in (BREATHE IT MHAHAHA, I sound high) which as it might sound a bit cliché, oh hold up, wait for it!

JAPAN
（日本）

"But, I thought you were half Thai from Thailand, why move to Japan?" - silly little reader, oh you ♡

I cannot see myself living in Thailand, as in permanently. /le laugh. How my life was down there was amazing, yes! But, also I just had a certain need for things like; seasons change, snow, people - maybe also less tourists. small things (lol, no) but, important .. ♡ 

First I'll just spend 6 months tops' if it is impossible for me to find a job of course, then I'll just leisure around till I'll get my butt to Thailand, for a minor stop to figure out what the hell I will do with mylifeself - But, I'm pretty sure I have it more figured out as the next 2-3 years will proceed, right?

So RIGHT NOW - I am doing nothing. Or, actually I'm looking up jobs, writing very hard on my CV, I would like the money so my mother would stop nagging at me + then she cannot stop me from getting a cat. lol, obviously also for other reasons than a cat! ..but, I really want a cat. 

• Get a job!
• Make moneyssssss
• Fix laptop with my moneysssss 
• Buy a new camera (if I can make myself, it shall be a DSLR!)
• Buy a house

Last one sounds insane but, honestly me and my mother really want to move out of this crappy-money-eating-ice-fucking-cold apartment (!!!) it is horrible, it really is and it's way overpriced and the owner of this building (it's an area) is a pig. But, with many things in my mother's papers, her debt and so on, I am the only one that really can step it up and buy a house. So I will, hopefully in a near future. HOHOHOHOH RICH ME /le lies+cries.    

Sorry this blog-entry is so dead!!  (｡>人<｡) 

I will post my Kimono + Yukata pictures in next post! 

Have a smashin' day everyone!!

It's so cold!!

Well I wanted to make a blog post before I was going to leave Thailand but, it had been so hectic and I felt like I had no time, even when I tried it was too late at night and I felt too tired to even do it at all. I thought about doing it in-between my transit/transfer flight from Kiev, Ukraine to Denmark (Copenhagen) since they were so fucking nice to have canceled my flight and first have me departure at 22:20 instead of 12:20 .. and then of course let me add that that flight got delayed till 22:45 for boarding. minor important but, still: one of the passengers had a blackout but, it looked like a stroke it scared me a lot.. 


Been here for just 3 days and I feel like I'm gaining weight rapidly .. but, that might have been the family that hosted me on Falster (don't ask lol, so far) mainly have a diet of white bread and carbs+sugar+chocolate .. I hate it sadly, but what-t dfjgdfkl am I to say no. I know I can just say no but, how rude would it be since they came all the way from Falster at 1AM at night to come pick me up to find out that my flight had been delayed, drive me back as well and then house me for additionally another 1½ day, feeding me and giving me a place to sleep - and shower. I shall not be a picky person.. in this case. Enough of my weirdness. lol, NEVER 

Sadly, I broke my external harddrive, the usb outlet plug thingy IN the harddrive have been knocked out of its place and now I cannot use it (which also means I cannot synv the songs on my iPod anymore.. so sad) fuck. Another thing I managed to break without touching it tho' would be my camera now it just all of a sudden wont do anything like, only turn ON and then, blank TT TT So 100% in miserable despair it's horrible! My harddrive has MY LIFE - seriously, it has documented footage/items eversince even pre-2008 O_O and then my entire year here in Thailand as well.. Not to mention the importance of retrieving its memory since it has all of my last moments with my friends all of us together, my friends doing "goodbye" videos for me with them talking to the camera as if it was me.. it aches like a fry pan to the face! I only got to see it once before my camera went suicidal..

1 more horrible thing, now that I have gotten my ass back to Jylland to my mothers place I have to go through allllllll of the effing paper work shit .. with bank, education, more bank, future, blah blah blah, omg. Go away stupid people let's just get this over with, with a sense of reason!

Till next time.. now that I have no camera I can't give you pictures Q3Q

What do you wanna be when you grow up?

I am still just a young person not mention my age is 18 but, just young lol and as like everyone just keep asking you out through your entire life
what do you want to do when you grow up toWhat are you going to major in: with the additional,  what you do you want to do with your life? - (*ﾟ∀ﾟ)

-          It’s always a freaking pain in the ass question to answer ヾ(｡`ε´｡)ﾉ"

Reasons: ★

1.       You might have a kinda plan on what you kinda want to follow but, in the end change it to something else – the awful many opportunities we have. Dammit

2.       From the age of 6 to 10, 12, 14, 16, 20, 22 you might feel like the dream job of yours just isn’t really fit for youanymore. We grow and therefore we might learn to love other things.

3.       Sometimes it just a bit embarrassing to let other people know what you really want to do. To the people around you, either it’s because or one or another thing.

I, myself have gone from various fantasies about slightly foolish or mere idiotic jobs or future dreams that have been changing drastically over the years, not just because of my own will but, also for the sake of my parents wanted me or did not want me to pursue such foolish dreams. But, what I want and will do in my life will probably change but, some things I’ve loved to do since I was a toddle, or a fish lol used to swim 24/7 from the age of 2 hahahaha.

So do I even have just a part time job now to make cash? 

NO   .. (･ｪ･) hæhæhæhæhæhæhæ

But, it’s not like I don’t have anything, I do modeling. Which is so clichés from what my surroundings would whisper in the all circles, which for me makes it slightly awkward how to place this occupation: to others (`･д『+』  

 

Yesterday I had a photo shoot, in a Japanese concept – Kimono and Yukata ♪(´∪`●) 

I had the Kimono rented since they are impossible to get in Bangkok, or just in Thailand. I had the Yukata purchased from my own pocket which have left a big burning hole auch! I had so much fun after losing up a little and had a more comfortable “relationship” with the photographer. I won’t get all of the pictures till the end of this week (burned on a CD, untouched, he doesn’t like to use Photoshop so it’s cool with me!) so I can’t show you everything, nor the more casual shoot I got with my friend Hiroko(*´∀`)人(^∀^) though we had some photos together that ended up very sensual /coughcoughcough**

And I will f***ing punch blogger in the face, Picasa and all of them not to upload my pictures no matter what I do.

But, he (the photographer) said that I really could become something in the model industry and the fact I can talk many languages was even better, made me think even more about it. 

What do I really want to do with myself? 

Where could I see myself in the future? 

Went to a fortune teller in the beginning of May ..

 
He told me a lot of things about my past that you just wouldn’t just try your lucky guess, he told me I’m wasn’t going to work or live in my country, he asked me if I had been thinking about working abroad since I was already studying abroad and for a matter for a fact I had been going on with the thought of trying to work abroad for a year when I turn 20 and graduate a basic degree, either in Thailand or Japan, which just made it a bigger motivation to really go for it this time no interference from others cause this is something I want. But, work with what?

Before I wanted to pursue many things, but mainly performing arts, I love to dance but, a career in dancing is even more risky than acting even though it really burns like a passion of mine!
(●癶∀癶●)  I feel like an idiot btw. 

I've decided to take it slow, do modeling as a sub-hobby/work but, try and figure out a sort of major to spend my last years of school to study (just thinking about not studying anymore gives me the chills ewwwwww) considering either a specific study like; cultural studies of Asia, of Korean/Thai/Japanese/ North East Asian studies of some kind or just linguistics.

Just trying to figure out a path to walk is so difficult (ﾉ`□´)ﾉ⌒┻━┻

I actually can't put words onto a title, to create a simple noun with a meaning, a feeling of thousands other meanings, but I will say I carry it with a heavy heart. Half a smile and tears on my face. Even though I look happy at my memories with everyone it's still the parting that hurts the most.

You know?

I'll just show you my precious memories.
yes being very emotional at the moment, I'm crying as I am typing this sentence! IM A HUMAN WITH FEELINGS OK 

This is just pictures you can take your time to look 

or just close the tab after reading this I love them anyways. 

April, the last run - At Sakura House

"Drinking w/ the Japanese" - Phrom Phong Soi 49. April

Our Korean - HAHAHAHA He's 26

Danish Dinner with my people! - Nana

Peggy's Birthday - After Party in the Lobby

May. & so the countdown starts

Our group picture ♡

My roomie Haruka♡

♡ EDOYA

Precious Yumi-chan♡

My mom Minami♡

Beloved Misato ♡

PHOTOBOOM Makoto♡

Kizuku♡The Funny guy

My hostress Ayumi♡

Lovely Ayaha♡

I miss you!♡