Will I ever adjust ★

"At this point, I frankly I have no idea if I can." 

- By me, not so long ago.

Stepping that little random scribble aside, I am as known before, in Denmark with much more time on my hands than this entire year I've been "gone" I've been thinking as probably more than usual. since it's so funny how I have no Internet and I have to TAKE others.. ew 

I made the decision that I will (only) stay in Denmark for another 2 years, why - you may ask or not I shall tell you that!

I just don't feel like I can make a home here in Denmark

It never felt right to me, but I never thought I could
leave this ice cold water pit on the surface of earth place.

Till I did.

Let me tell you a little other truth, I actually don't like it here, Denmark, I don't like it, it's just not a place for me - to me I think I would better off mentally, probably also physically in another country. I wouldn't say, whichever or wherever will do, it's not like that (had a minor fight on skype with an IDIOT about "going everywhere" my ass I haven't gone everywhere you jerk!) Of course I need to finish my ground (basic) education first, not to mention something along the lines of University.

I'm not running away from my responsibilities not that I have any OTL not fearing of becoming a failure without "proper" educational background. as other retards put it, screw you I HAVE MONEY BITCH, jk 

*coughcough* I want to have a taste of living in a country I always loved and wanted to live in (BREATHE IT MHAHAHA, I sound high) which as it might sound a bit cliché, oh hold up, wait for it!

JAPAN
（日本）

"But, I thought you were half Thai from Thailand, why move to Japan?" - silly little reader, oh you ♡

I cannot see myself living in Thailand, as in permanently. /le laugh. How my life was down there was amazing, yes! But, also I just had a certain need for things like; seasons change, snow, people - maybe also less tourists. small things (lol, no) but, important .. ♡ 

First I'll just spend 6 months tops' if it is impossible for me to find a job of course, then I'll just leisure around till I'll get my butt to Thailand, for a minor stop to figure out what the hell I will do with mylifeself - But, I'm pretty sure I have it more figured out as the next 2-3 years will proceed, right?

So RIGHT NOW - I am doing nothing. Or, actually I'm looking up jobs, writing very hard on my CV, I would like the money so my mother would stop nagging at me + then she cannot stop me from getting a cat. lol, obviously also for other reasons than a cat! ..but, I really want a cat. 

• Get a job!
• Make moneyssssss
• Fix laptop with my moneysssss 
• Buy a new camera (if I can make myself, it shall be a DSLR!)
• Buy a house

Last one sounds insane but, honestly me and my mother really want to move out of this crappy-money-eating-ice-fucking-cold apartment (!!!) it is horrible, it really is and it's way overpriced and the owner of this building (it's an area) is a pig. But, with many things in my mother's papers, her debt and so on, I am the only one that really can step it up and buy a house. So I will, hopefully in a near future. HOHOHOHOH RICH ME /le lies+cries.    

Sorry this blog-entry is so dead!!  (｡>人<｡) 

I will post my Kimono + Yukata pictures in next post! 

Have a smashin' day everyone!!

It's so cold!!

Well I wanted to make a blog post before I was going to leave Thailand but, it had been so hectic and I felt like I had no time, even when I tried it was too late at night and I felt too tired to even do it at all. I thought about doing it in-between my transit/transfer flight from Kiev, Ukraine to Denmark (Copenhagen) since they were so fucking nice to have canceled my flight and first have me departure at 22:20 instead of 12:20 .. and then of course let me add that that flight got delayed till 22:45 for boarding. minor important but, still: one of the passengers had a blackout but, it looked like a stroke it scared me a lot.. 


Been here for just 3 days and I feel like I'm gaining weight rapidly .. but, that might have been the family that hosted me on Falster (don't ask lol, so far) mainly have a diet of white bread and carbs+sugar+chocolate .. I hate it sadly, but what-t dfjgdfkl am I to say no. I know I can just say no but, how rude would it be since they came all the way from Falster at 1AM at night to come pick me up to find out that my flight had been delayed, drive me back as well and then house me for additionally another 1½ day, feeding me and giving me a place to sleep - and shower. I shall not be a picky person.. in this case. Enough of my weirdness. lol, NEVER 

Sadly, I broke my external harddrive, the usb outlet plug thingy IN the harddrive have been knocked out of its place and now I cannot use it (which also means I cannot synv the songs on my iPod anymore.. so sad) fuck. Another thing I managed to break without touching it tho' would be my camera now it just all of a sudden wont do anything like, only turn ON and then, blank TT TT So 100% in miserable despair it's horrible! My harddrive has MY LIFE - seriously, it has documented footage/items eversince even pre-2008 O_O and then my entire year here in Thailand as well.. Not to mention the importance of retrieving its memory since it has all of my last moments with my friends all of us together, my friends doing "goodbye" videos for me with them talking to the camera as if it was me.. it aches like a fry pan to the face! I only got to see it once before my camera went suicidal..

1 more horrible thing, now that I have gotten my ass back to Jylland to my mothers place I have to go through allllllll of the effing paper work shit .. with bank, education, more bank, future, blah blah blah, omg. Go away stupid people let's just get this over with, with a sense of reason!

Till next time.. now that I have no camera I can't give you pictures Q3Q