Wednesday, May 16, 2012

What do you wanna be when you grow up?

I am still just a young person not mention my age is 18 but, just young lol and as like everyone just keep asking you out through your entire life
what do you want to do when you grow up
toWhat are you going to major in: with the additional,  what you do you want to do with your life? -

-          It’s always a freaking pain in the ass question to answer ヾ(。`ε´。)ノ"

1.       You might have a kinda plan on what you kinda want to follow but, in the end change it to something else – the awful many opportunities we have. Dammit
2.       From the age of 6 to 10, 12, 14, 16, 20, 22 you might feel like the dream job of yours just isn’t really fit for youanymore. We grow and therefore we might learn to love other things.
3.       Sometimes it just a bit embarrassing to let other people know what you really want to do. To the people around you, either it’s because or one or another thing.

I, myself have gone from various fantasies about slightly foolish or mere idiotic jobs or future dreams that have been changing drastically over the years, not just because of my own will but, also for the sake of my parents wanted me or did not want me to pursue such foolish dreams. But, what I want and will do in my life will probably change but, some things I’ve loved to do since I was a toddle, or a fish lol used to swim 24/7 from the age of 2 hahahaha.

So do I even have just a part time job now to make cash? 

NO   .. (・ェ・) hæhæhæhæhæhæhæ

But, it’s not like I don’t have anything, I do modeling. Which is so clichés from what my surroundings would whisper in the all circles, which for me makes it slightly awkward how to place this occupation: to others (`・д『+  
Yesterday I had a photo shoot, in a Japanese concept – Kimono and Yukata (´∪`) 

I had the Kimono rented since they are impossible to get in Bangkok, or just in Thailand. I had the Yukata purchased from my own pocket which have left a big burning hole auch! I had so much fun after losing up a little and had a more comfortable “relationship” with the photographer. I won’t get all of the pictures till the end of this week (burned on a CD, untouched, he doesn’t like to use Photoshop so it’s cool with me!) so I can’t show you everything, nor the more casual shoot I got with my friend Hiroko(*´∀`)(^^) though we had some photos together that ended up very sensual /coughcoughcough**
And I will f***ing punch blogger in the face, Picasa and all of them not to upload my pictures no matter what I do.

But, he (the photographer) said that I really could become something in the model industry and the fact I can talk many languages was even better, made me think even more about it. 

What do I really want to do with myself? 
Where could I see myself in the future? 

Went to a fortune teller in the beginning of May ..
He told me a lot of things about my past that you just wouldn
t just try your lucky guess, he told me Im wasnt going to work or live in my country, he asked me if I had been thinking about working abroad since I was already studying abroad and for a matter for a fact I had been going on with the thought of trying to work abroad for a year when I turn 20 and graduate a basic degree, either in Thailand or Japan, which just made it a bigger motivation to really go for it this time no interference from others cause this is something I want. But, work with what?
Before I wanted to pursue many things, but mainly performing arts, I love to dance but, a career in dancing is even more risky than acting even though it really burns like a passion of mine!
()  I feel like an idiot btw. 

I've decided to take it slow, do modeling as a sub-hobby/work but, try and figure out a sort of major to spend my last years of school to study (just thinking about not studying anymore gives me the chills ewwwwww) considering either a specific study like; cultural studies of Asia, of Korean/Thai/Japanese/ North East Asian studies of some kind or just linguistics.

Just trying to figure out a path to walk is so difficult (`´)ノ⌒┻━┻

1 comment:

  1. I always answer that question with "Happy".. Cause it's true. I just wanna be happy when I grow up : D (and you're a fine lady btw ; D)