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Hey guys. I'm sorry for not blogging about what I should - meaning I have 3 blogs I'm fairly done with but, just need to fill it out completely. But, lately I've been feeling really down. I thought school would have been good for me; which it is, don't get it all wrong (which you probably won't). I do enjoy the school but, I find it somewhat difficult to focus, the Danish is hard, so many words I feel like I'm already falling back even though I' ve only attended 1 session of each. Today my History EXOOOOO class was canceled and tomorrow I have a long day till 7PM (from 8AM-7PM) and yesterday I had classes from 8AM-8:50PM I ended up home at around 10:30PM.

I'm starting to show signs of depression, it's weird for me. I've had depression before but, I never thought I would get again and defiantly not over something as pity as this. But, my doctor is warning me about it, but it's sort of a winter depression though in a totally different manner. I talked to her about it and what might be the causes but, in the end it's all rooted in, here. As in where I am. Denmark. I just can't adjust to the idea of being here, not anymore. For me it's just not home. I might have had hard times in Thailand, whenever which ever I go there, of course there would be its problems but, that's what it is. But, Denmark just isn't a part of me, as I thought, yes I may be 50% Danish, but, I can't embrace that anymore it's like it got killed. 

Not literally, of course it can't be killed, since it's a part of my being, my flesh and DNA but, as much as it is apart of me; just as much I hate it. I've had identity crisis for some years now so I guess being in the country of my home being, Thailand, it caused a riot within me seeing how it wouldn't last, not for as long as I wanted. My doctor says it is a uncommon thing for her to hear about and she can't relate to it.

I don't expect any to do so. It's just how I am feeling being a mixed race of 2 vividly different cultures and people living in them.

I was going to blog about my August Beauty haul (<- link to the YT video), but, as I feel and am right now it just seems like it won't be that possible to do. I did make a video (vlog-ish) of it, where I'm more of a blinded deer and not really sure what I'm saying, derping and even doing with the beauty products.

I'll update soon, as soon as I can. Wait for me okay?

Thanks for reading<3

(●´□`) ㅋㅋㅋ got mail.

This morning I got a obnoxious wakeup call from our slightly beloved mailman! (But, it was actually a woman lol) Normally my mother would be twisting my neck and my low-life existence for buying things on the Internet; especially if it is a wig. kidding actually, everything that comes in form of a mailbox or whatever is like BANNED

I purchased an orange wig with 2 attachable pigs tails; the wig is straight styled and the pig tails are curly. The fiber of the hair is simply put "Japanese fabric". The ebay seller is located in Hong Kong, this is the first time I've bought a wig from Hong Kong and I had no expectations what so ever. but it was PRICEY so I did not WANT anything to happen with it.  

The package came as a big envelope, lots of tape and more tape. Not the best but, thankfully nothing could be 'broken'

They have their own website; Wig Is Fashion Also if you like their FB page, email them, they'll provide you 5% discount on ONE of your items (highest of value) or your order - read in small below Get An Extra 5% Discount*

 

 

It cost me like 25.30US I feel horrible I've never spent that much on a wig but, then again never bought a wig with pig tails and it was in the only color + design I needed for my cosplay below.

If no one can guess, it's the girl with orange hair~ Anime: Ao No Hana.

 I went into to Horsens today (the closest city to me with a train station, fufufu) to get my eyes checked also supposed to buy makeup remover and facial lotion!!! ARGH MOM YOUUUUUU   

Handed in my Canon HD video camera as well, luckily I still have insurance on it so hopefully Canon can fix it! if not gimme a new one bitches. I will be praying ヽ(〇･△･)人(･△･〇)ﾉ mmm
It was literally cold as fuck and I totally regret leaving my jacket in the car believing I would withstand the "cold" because it wasn't windy - till I got the f- outta the car (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡 ┻━┻
After getting examined, got some trail lenses (more expensive as well, but supposed to be better for my eyes.. (ಠ___ಠ) and then I waited for my mom to come back, and waited etc, she never showed, I tried to walk to the car park (free parking, lol) where she SAID she would be - no she wasn't, I decided I couldn't just take a bus home (key-less) so I walked all the way to the trainstation to use the payphone to call her for 10kr! OUTRAGEOUS; she was still packing at Kvickly even though she told me she would move the fucking car (ಠ___ಠ) I found her in the end, lol, hopeless lost child. I guess I've been away for so long I get lost my mother now, wtf. It was really crowded today since Metallica is having a concert today/night frankly I dunno when just today and people were pre-gamin' a lot on the streets and it had traffic on hold for like evaaaaaaa.

Got batteries finally! But, sadly not in the right size for my panda speakers I got from Kenta (that wants to be censored on all"retarded"  pictures of him, lol) ..

Today's view from my window!

"Hello~" lol, jk. My old digital camera is working now! Luckily it wasn't damaged after all of these years.

So here's a few pictures from today, probably also for the rest of the next couple of weeks.. haha

I know it's messy but, I'm building up something for me to do later, hahaha

Learning to focus with the digital camera, ps. Isn't the speaker adorable?!

So instead of 175kr pr month for my previous ones to these "so-much-better" DD Comfort 1Day lenses to 248kr pr month, I know it's not "that much" but, the sound of something below 200 was more in my favor since I still haven't had the opportunity to actually get a job ; __ ;

New strength: -2.75 darm.

Gotten addicted to Snapple (Heavenly Lemonade) !! Love the cute little facts in the lids (ﾉ･ω･)ﾉ

 And as a souvenir I promised the lovely not to mention handsome (!!) Nani, here's a small preview of your Kpop-Thailand gift bag from me dear~ Mini Taemin key-chain-thingy-I-have-no-idea lol

Tomorrow my friend, Misato from Japan, who's currently in England right now with her twin sister; Misaki, is coming to Denmark to visit me!! I'm so happy and excited I cannot describe in a simple manner it at all!! I'll pick her up at the airport tomorrow at around 7PM and then we'll have a nice cozy hangout weekend till she has to leave again on the 9th, but I'm happy she actually came to Denmark just to see me, feeling so special, yes yes~ (ﾉゝ∀･)ﾉ*:･☆

Love you all ♡ peace

A bit of a haul-ing

 So I bought some things since I got a Watsons membership card!!
super awesome when I go to Denmark on the 27th of May, brilliant.

They're (Watsons) are having a sale this last week of April till the 19th of May

- and oh boy so many great deals I wanna get my hands on, mhahahaha
STFU APRIL SHALL NEVER END I DONT WANT THIS SEMESTER TO END AND SEND MY FRIENDS "HOME"

On my way "home" from Central I went by the Boomerang (CD-DVD-etc) just to see if they had

EXOK OFC's debut single thingy.. I've like listened to History&MAMA hyping repeatedly so addicting gsdjkfhskjdf /cough

THEY HAD

... rest is HISTORY - hahaha.. just hit me /le frown.

ALSO HAVE A MEMBERSHIP CARD FOR BOOMERANG SO GOT THE IMPORTED DIRECTLY FROM KOREA ALBUM FOR 499B 

(90kr, 16USD, 12Euros)

Hada Labo mask (99B/2Euro/3USD) some wet tissues "Buy 1 Get 1" ygh..
Biore UV sunblock (212B/8USD/5Euro) Silver ring wings 1Euro/1USD/9kr

And EXO! I'm actually not a fan but, darm I dig their groove. Tho' the album/cover design
kinda disappointed me a lot, so afraid to rip it holy shi-

Moisture and hydration mask!
Looks awesome, cheap and I love HDLB!

I will try it soon, my skin needs the care.

I have a small request, since oh well, I am awfully humble haha

 Do you think I should write reviews over the products I purchase - mainly beauty/cosmetics

Did my nails randomly. 

3 for 200B - each of them are 120 so that's an offer a Watsons member can't say no to<3

410B (74USD - holy shiiii) for Lash King from MM I've heard  GREAT stuff about it so
wanted to check it out, not my favourite though still hard to control and clumps easily
within the container I mean so annoying with giant "balls" caught on the comb

I will end this meaningless post with some edits I made on my iPod Touch, liked them a bit so thought I would share since I probably have no where to put themonline.

Edited in a Chinese app liked the outcome though I wasn't prepared for the contrast..

Me and my roommate together at Khao Yai!

Yes I wrote the Japanese, and if you can read it
- Dackie is my Thai name, Haruka's name is very unique and
different from the "normal" Japanese name for 'Haruka'.

THIS IS FOLLOWED BY A MINOR RANT OK

Oh yes, I'm having apartment issues now that money is being fucked up and what not, I cannot describe how horrible this is and I am so mad I honestly doubt I'll be able to control my anger/temper/call-it-what-so-ever at all even towards my friends here, they're also pretty good at acting as insensitive morons making me wanting to slap them so hard their face move several inches onto the back of their own incompetent heads and go bald.  My roommate is returning to Japan on the 5th of May, which also is the last day to submit your payment for the apartment at my apartment dormitory building, she originally paid a deposit of 19,000B (3459KR - 613USD!) and we talked about how to make my last 27 days with a roof over my head and a shower work and such. IT WONT WORK, I'll end up paying her a sub total of 26,540B (4831KR /857USD kill me) because of the rent for March+April+rent for May+the deposit. 

My mom came up with the utterly ridiculous not to mention freaking retarded thing ever: "Can't you just ask her to wait till you go back to Denmark and pay her back the cash then?" -I'm sorry, as ice cold and childish my roommate can be have been kind enough to let me pass the March rent since my Mastercard "problems" started at that exact time now I'll have to pay March and April at the same time (7540B) because I just am the person that HATES HATE HATE HATE HATES to pay people back - aka, I do not like to borrow money either, ever. I will starve myself, I do not borrow money, okay - if I did I would obviosuly not be able to pay you back because d'uh I don't have the money, therefore if I had money I wouldn't think OMG I NEED TO PAY YOU BACK ASAP! - I'm sorry did I forget all of the things I need to pay for already and now I need to pay another person back. Great now no money and need to borrow again. HAHAHAHAHA - NO. Ofcourse I would borrow from you (if offered only) if it's because I forgot my wallet in my room then I can return the money because I HAVE THEM so mom, idiot, no in this world I don't intend to end up as people that owes almost half a million to her friends. I will cut my wrists slowly with a spoon instead.

Then I get a shitload of comments from her of why I did not think about a plan B for this or another place to stay after she leaves. I will no more say,
"I'm sorry, please fucking listen to the words that are coming out of my mouth instead of spitting yours in it, gross"

I DID FUCKING NOT EVEN CONSIDER IN THE FIRST PLACE AT ALL TO KEEP PUT IN THE APARTMENT AFTER SHE WOULD LEAVE.

1) Talked to other friends thai ones if I could "move in" for the last few weeks I had in Thailand 

2) I can just "live" at my cousins place in Pattaya though I would not be able to see my friends

3) I could just move back into my old apartment which is 80% cheaper than the one I share with Haruka

stfu and don't die too soon of this magical logic. scumbag behind me needs to fucking stop being an idiot and kick the wall or I will rip his chest open, rip by rip and stab his heart with me pen.

Have a good day. Mine is defiantly ruined.

Love you all see you later!

☆お誕生日だよ－！생일축하해♪ HBD☆

Happy Birthday to me lalalala☆彡 

ヽ(〇･△･)人(･△･〇)ﾉ
- dance my little readers, celebrate me! lol, jkjk.

My 18th birthday was on the 04/03
- So more exact it was not that long time ago (about a week/8days-ish) and I finally turned 18!!

Wohoooo! ((*@>▽<@)ﾉ彡☆*:･ﾟ◃:
Been some dreadful 6 months (｡△｡ )* being teased by all
of the Uni kids with; jail bait, minor, kid, 銃七歳 or こども ... etc

Panda towel from Dolly♡

Chaho (MATCHA♡) from Kenta
(white box) scented rose shaped soap
-from my roomie♡

Rilakkuma PhoneStrap from Jo (send from Korea!♡)
& Misato gave me the BLUE one♡.. w/ a panda on.

POSTERRRRRRRRR♡♡♡♡♡

BACK COVERRRRR

GD EDITION OF ALIVE/BIGBANG 5th (mini...) ALBUM♡

New glasses! I love them already!♡

DERP DERP DERP

BB goods from Ayaha♡ Lol her BD was the 12th
Gave her a 2PM calender + a Chansung phonestrap

It just screamed at me♡ Super comfortable!

 Onto "THE PARTY" = a very casual (I being the one that made it awkward because I felt awkward, stupid and me blaaaaah) lovely dinner with my friends + Dolly (She's not thaaaaat much in my life but, guess she felt like it was okay for her to join without an invite.. but, I forgive her for the Panda♡)

+ I was very happy my crush said yes to coming as well.. ♡/le blushing dead.

Kenta and Tomoki talking about sports..  (ﾉ*´ I`)ﾉ

 (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ

DERP DERP DERP (つ∀-) Glad it's not me ohohoho

OTL

...  ( ﾟ∇ﾟ) Such a mature 18 year old

NOMNOMNOM

Something with eel-Don

Laughed when he got his "REGULAR"-sized set
= He eats barely anything( =∇=)''

Kizuku arrived on THE DAY at night a few hours before the day was over

... Tho' this is pictures from the day after my BD (●´□`)/

- WHERE WE HAD MY PATHETIC LOOKING HappyBirthDay CAKE!

It says "HBD DACKI" OK.