Summer Dead 20140711

I'm back~ How have you been today?

I kinda have been dead since my giveaway post, I'm sorry I promised to be more active and/with reviews + more posting in general. 

I'm truly sorry for being a boring person, haha... mostly the reason why is that summer to me = death. Pollen allergies sucks and I don't have much going on, I did go see some friends (1 friend, just one, yeah you Nani, you) which was really nice.

                                                                         

The past month (June) went by in a so-so pace, all of a sudden things went by super fast and then things just went down in speed and it never seemed to near July at all. My boyfriend and I have been moving around, looking for schools, applied for visa, waiting for visa, job hunting 

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The list kinda keeps going along a lot but imagine a lot of lazy days inbetween. Been having a lot of problems with my school and with SU (student support in Denmark), it's quiet retarded and I'm still trying to get some SU so I get some money by August or else I can't go to school after moving to Sweden HAHA. /notfunny.

Hey, I do after all not shit out money every other day ya'll. Personal funds/savings can only carry you "so far". SO SAVE UP ALWAYS SAVE UP, you never know what can happen and you will be motherf**king grateful for that little voice in your head telling you NOT TO buy a bunch of things and save it for later. 

//like a sale, LOL

I got contacted by a photographer to do a PAID shoot, darm I felt happy! I don't like approaching people and I don't usually ask for money when I work with others, which makes perfect sense I approached them, not the other way around (but, there's occasionally cases where I get paid gigs!) And not just that I was so lucky that a acquaintance of mine got me hooked up for a try out for a waitress job in Copenhagen, next week ~ So crossing fingers I CAN GET THE JOB. I want a job ok I kinda need the money to live while I spend my SU on rent and expensive transportation between Sweden to Denmark and so on.

Having SU being a little sassy problem other than that, do you know how annoying it is to WAIT FOR EVER for a responds from the government about whether or not your loved ones application will be accepted or not, we are just in the pre-stage so we still have to re-apply for the ACTUAL visa when we get the green light. I just want to punch a bunch of wall, it's nerve wrecking man. 

Other than that I'm working out and eating healthy trying to change the way I see my body and accept the body I have and that I should love it for what it is, cause I got the power to change it. 

All the motivational quote stuff ;) 

I'll show my workout progress on my blog too, can't hurt to keep record on my blog other than on my blogilates app I'm probably too shy to post it. I don't think my results are SUPER AMAZING but, I'm working towards the amazing part so gimme a another 12 weeks~ 

Thanks for reading! New post TOMORROW UHHH~

Test Shoot

Hello!~ Last Sunday I was out for a test photoshoot, a beauty shoot with Rachan, an amazingly talented photographer in Thailand, as well as the fabulous Noon Ratipat MUA she's so sweet too! I going for a test shoot originally organised to see if I had the face he was looking for etc + so the MUA could work on my face. Good for me that it all turned out great and I did get the gig in the end at Pickadaily~ Sadly te MUA was busy that day :/

Got to play with the flash shutter with my own Canon EOS 650

I haven't gotten my hands on any of my pictures from this shoot so I'll show it as soon as I get it! Stay tuned for that, I was some of the pictures and darm I was stunned the makeup was so flawless! 

There was another model during this, Khun Eye (I know weird nickname, right?) that was doing a bikini shoot all I can say is I awed at her slim legs..So envious!

Close up of her face

Since I can't show any pictures from the photoshoot yet I'll just give a sneakpeak on the makeup, but that doesn't justify the makeup at all, closest to justice is the Instagram picture I posted right after we finished the application even with my crappy phone

Also some BTS on it all:

freaking thumbnails..ughhhhh

Thanks for reading!

Will I ever adjust ★

"At this point, I frankly I have no idea if I can." 

- By me, not so long ago.

Stepping that little random scribble aside, I am as known before, in Denmark with much more time on my hands than this entire year I've been "gone" I've been thinking as probably more than usual. since it's so funny how I have no Internet and I have to TAKE others.. ew 

I made the decision that I will (only) stay in Denmark for another 2 years, why - you may ask or not I shall tell you that!

I just don't feel like I can make a home here in Denmark

It never felt right to me, but I never thought I could
leave this ice cold water pit on the surface of earth place.

Till I did.

Let me tell you a little other truth, I actually don't like it here, Denmark, I don't like it, it's just not a place for me - to me I think I would better off mentally, probably also physically in another country. I wouldn't say, whichever or wherever will do, it's not like that (had a minor fight on skype with an IDIOT about "going everywhere" my ass I haven't gone everywhere you jerk!) Of course I need to finish my ground (basic) education first, not to mention something along the lines of University.

I'm not running away from my responsibilities not that I have any OTL not fearing of becoming a failure without "proper" educational background. as other retards put it, screw you I HAVE MONEY BITCH, jk 

*coughcough* I want to have a taste of living in a country I always loved and wanted to live in (BREATHE IT MHAHAHA, I sound high) which as it might sound a bit cliché, oh hold up, wait for it!

JAPAN
（日本）

"But, I thought you were half Thai from Thailand, why move to Japan?" - silly little reader, oh you ♡

I cannot see myself living in Thailand, as in permanently. /le laugh. How my life was down there was amazing, yes! But, also I just had a certain need for things like; seasons change, snow, people - maybe also less tourists. small things (lol, no) but, important .. ♡ 

First I'll just spend 6 months tops' if it is impossible for me to find a job of course, then I'll just leisure around till I'll get my butt to Thailand, for a minor stop to figure out what the hell I will do with mylifeself - But, I'm pretty sure I have it more figured out as the next 2-3 years will proceed, right?

So RIGHT NOW - I am doing nothing. Or, actually I'm looking up jobs, writing very hard on my CV, I would like the money so my mother would stop nagging at me + then she cannot stop me from getting a cat. lol, obviously also for other reasons than a cat! ..but, I really want a cat. 

• Get a job!
• Make moneyssssss
• Fix laptop with my moneysssss 
• Buy a new camera (if I can make myself, it shall be a DSLR!)
• Buy a house

Last one sounds insane but, honestly me and my mother really want to move out of this crappy-money-eating-ice-fucking-cold apartment (!!!) it is horrible, it really is and it's way overpriced and the owner of this building (it's an area) is a pig. But, with many things in my mother's papers, her debt and so on, I am the only one that really can step it up and buy a house. So I will, hopefully in a near future. HOHOHOHOH RICH ME /le lies+cries.    

Sorry this blog-entry is so dead!!  (｡>人<｡) 

I will post my Kimono + Yukata pictures in next post! 

Have a smashin' day everyone!!

What do you wanna be when you grow up?

I am still just a young person not mention my age is 18 but, just young lol and as like everyone just keep asking you out through your entire life
what do you want to do when you grow up toWhat are you going to major in: with the additional,  what you do you want to do with your life? - (*ﾟ∀ﾟ)

-          It’s always a freaking pain in the ass question to answer ヾ(｡`ε´｡)ﾉ"

Reasons: ★

1.       You might have a kinda plan on what you kinda want to follow but, in the end change it to something else – the awful many opportunities we have. Dammit

2.       From the age of 6 to 10, 12, 14, 16, 20, 22 you might feel like the dream job of yours just isn’t really fit for youanymore. We grow and therefore we might learn to love other things.

3.       Sometimes it just a bit embarrassing to let other people know what you really want to do. To the people around you, either it’s because or one or another thing.

I, myself have gone from various fantasies about slightly foolish or mere idiotic jobs or future dreams that have been changing drastically over the years, not just because of my own will but, also for the sake of my parents wanted me or did not want me to pursue such foolish dreams. But, what I want and will do in my life will probably change but, some things I’ve loved to do since I was a toddle, or a fish lol used to swim 24/7 from the age of 2 hahahaha.

So do I even have just a part time job now to make cash? 

NO   .. (･ｪ･) hæhæhæhæhæhæhæ

But, it’s not like I don’t have anything, I do modeling. Which is so clichés from what my surroundings would whisper in the all circles, which for me makes it slightly awkward how to place this occupation: to others (`･д『+』  

 

Yesterday I had a photo shoot, in a Japanese concept – Kimono and Yukata ♪(´∪`●) 

I had the Kimono rented since they are impossible to get in Bangkok, or just in Thailand. I had the Yukata purchased from my own pocket which have left a big burning hole auch! I had so much fun after losing up a little and had a more comfortable “relationship” with the photographer. I won’t get all of the pictures till the end of this week (burned on a CD, untouched, he doesn’t like to use Photoshop so it’s cool with me!) so I can’t show you everything, nor the more casual shoot I got with my friend Hiroko(*´∀`)人(^∀^) though we had some photos together that ended up very sensual /coughcoughcough**

And I will f***ing punch blogger in the face, Picasa and all of them not to upload my pictures no matter what I do.

But, he (the photographer) said that I really could become something in the model industry and the fact I can talk many languages was even better, made me think even more about it. 

What do I really want to do with myself? 

Where could I see myself in the future? 

Went to a fortune teller in the beginning of May ..

 
He told me a lot of things about my past that you just wouldn’t just try your lucky guess, he told me I’m wasn’t going to work or live in my country, he asked me if I had been thinking about working abroad since I was already studying abroad and for a matter for a fact I had been going on with the thought of trying to work abroad for a year when I turn 20 and graduate a basic degree, either in Thailand or Japan, which just made it a bigger motivation to really go for it this time no interference from others cause this is something I want. But, work with what?

Before I wanted to pursue many things, but mainly performing arts, I love to dance but, a career in dancing is even more risky than acting even though it really burns like a passion of mine!
(●癶∀癶●)  I feel like an idiot btw. 

I've decided to take it slow, do modeling as a sub-hobby/work but, try and figure out a sort of major to spend my last years of school to study (just thinking about not studying anymore gives me the chills ewwwwww) considering either a specific study like; cultural studies of Asia, of Korean/Thai/Japanese/ North East Asian studies of some kind or just linguistics.

Just trying to figure out a path to walk is so difficult (ﾉ`□´)ﾉ⌒┻━┻

Leaving Pattaya soon after a family visit, to see my new baby niece! She is SO adorable. And it's rare for me to say that, since I get the big case of creeps when I see kids, and most of the time.. - they annoy me.


- Yes. I'll be a brilliant mother someday! I can't imagine me even getting married, since who the hell would marry me 555. 


I've been here since Friday (the 8th Oct), arrived around 8PM, I was really toasted, but they prepared me yummy food - a lot of food, but it was all spicy so NOMNOM for me! 


Been trying to get back into a workout cycle, it's going fine, it's a bit lose not so effective and mainly just sets of 10's on different areas a few times a day: 3-4 times, since it's such small sets. I'm going to start and only eat healthy food, try not to drink a little as possible, as little as possible. and exercise at least 1 hour day: or a minimum of 30 mins - minimum. But, all is well and I feel much better when I do it, so I'll totally not refrain from doing so! Hahaha! Going to miss the relaxing atmosphere, 100s of channels, also all the spicy food, and coconut yogurt - My new love<3.


btw, been a real nerd, and no lifer by learning a coin trick/move, the one you always see pro poker gamers do with their chips.. HELL YEAH I CAN DO THAT NOW. I can star in James Bond now with my new amazing'ly awesome move. MHAHAHA.


But, I am VERY EXCITED & nervous - My photoshoot is tomorrow evening, my throat closes up on me in all due tension in my muscles and body, so nervous, but also I have giant butterflies in my stomach! I cannot wait, just looking in the mirror thinking about the shoot makes me smile so big, I find myself even more stupid looking than usual. AHAHAHA, but also, I'm just hoping it'll turn out good, I'll enjoy myself and have a great time. Yes, for sure.


Wish me lucky babies! I'll update with pictures soon. I HOPE GOD DAMMIT.