Journal: 29/06/2011 – Wednesday

29/06/2011 – Wednesday

It’s 11:18AM, woke up like .. half an hour ago, it’s hard adjusting to the time actually, knowing I’m a 100% morning person and a person to barely have more than 5-6 hours a sleep a’day. So this is defiantly different, lol – OTL. I’m feeling slightly bloated and like, .. as “you” maybe would know I’ve been used to drinking certain type of slimming herbal tea, a normal brand in Thailand, a form for laxative tea so I always had to go the bathroom often. Now I just pee, and like I’ve gone days before actually doing more it amazes me, is that how a normal body really should like react? O_O Aish, I don’t know and I’m not sure either, might be because I’m not really eating? Or maybe I’m eating too ‘hard’ things .. I have no idea, been drinking that stuff for so long that I’ve forgotten everything about that system hahahaha.

But, I might start drinking that again.. seems like I could need that hahaha. If not erm, later? KA

Today nothing is really planned to happen, only that I have to go to the like webcafe – again. Ugh omg, I already promised myself not to make it a habit since I need to distance myself from it, it’s actually not as hard as It sounds.. sure I’m lonely, and miss a lot of things and the list can be endless but, still – it’s not hard. Not that it’s not but, still I MANAGE OK.

I still really wanna start and make this apartment more like, my own – Really bad, but I hate how they judge so much of what I like, they made fun of me when I wanted to buy wigs and cosplay and shit like that back 3 years ago and now they keep teasing me about it, also as I told my mother hates Korea and Japan, mainly I’m the one at fault for that, lol.. But, actually my only English speaking Uncle, “hates” Korea as well.. ugh. But, he’s fine with me being into it, loving the culture and music and all, he’s happy with that, but he still hates Koreans.. He has been there before, he doesn’t like their attitude and think they’re rude and all ._. I don’t think that is the case, all the time. I know by not experience since I only have one Korean friend like IRL, but she’s adopted so she’s been raised in Denmark and shit by Danish folks, I know Korean better than her ROFL HAHAHA  watching a lot of different shows like Star King and Oh My School, that they can be very rude to foreign people because they, don’t seem to get why they speak English to them in Korea and all, lol I get that hahah.

-But he likes Japan, and Japanese people, OTL ROFL. Muahhahaha, so epic.

Ugh, they keep asking if I’m hungry o_e I’ll tell them if I am, or not. And I dunno it’s like my stomach is in some sort of shock state or something, I don’t feel hungry at all, na da. Really, or maybe I just can’t tell the difference between hunger and like, not hunger. xD I have no idea, but I don’t feel that hungry but, I know I should eat due to my metabolism, it’s so bad ;A; REALLY. /sob sob sob.

Gimme some Green Tea you foolish humans, gahahahahaa. Seriously though, I could use some, lol. Missing it already ;~~~;

I’ll write later, byebye~ Part 1 end, 11:47AM

Part 2 – 8:35PM Wednesday the 29^th.

Today really have been.. boring. Or I dunno it’s been so chill I have no idea, I’ve cleaned my laptop so like I have over 20% more space than before, heck that's a lot on my laptop! Yet again am I drinking Ovaltime.. the hot chocolate with sugar.. I dunno, I feel like I have to drink something warm but, only have this, and ugh! DON'T WANNA ;A; I wanna lose weight not gain >< hate it hate it hate, hate etttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

There isn’t much to tell, I still haven’t gotten a notification mail from my uni so I dunno about my visa papers yet, and I like need them soon T__T REAL SOON..

Checked my mail on my phone doesn’t seem like anything really happens, like friend vise as well, ugh, I feel the love you know? Lol, nevermind, nothing ever really happens unless I do something myself.

So going to write a bunch of stuff down I need to buy, have my mother call tomorrow and then we’ll, the aunts and I, will go shopping after those things, like just simple apartment supplies ~ like; cups in the bathroom to hold my toothbrush and all that so it won’t get disgusting, some hair brushes and hair pins  and stuff like that, maybe even some bathroom stuff and private things like I dunno, oranges and low carb fruit, a scale and a food weight, hahaha. Would like that.

Some speakers for my music would be awesome.. but, everything like that can wait like, if I get into Uni next year I’ll defiantly buy it! If not.. I’ll just buy it in Denmark. Omg lol, I just remembered a funny thing, after my uncle and I decided to drive back to my place after being at Racharatburi Bridge and having awesome tea, yummy my green tea was just- ksdjfjslsdkd, sadly my camera ran out of power so didn’t get a picture of it e_e

Oh oh oh! I’ve like updated on various different stories of mine, I’m super surprised I’ve like.. been able to - thinking about how many I actually have.. Might be because I got so much time, but it’s hard writing a lot in the heat, my laptop is like dying just being in Denmark so like, HAVE TO BUY A NOTEBOOK COOLER omg, I seriously need one.

Need to have air con on when using my laptop without the danger of it suddenly just shutting down due to heat. Ugh, stupid money, things might be ‘cheap’ here but, when you don’t have a job to rely on you can’t just ramble about with money! Ugh, my uncle doesn’t get that..

Been watching a lot of Thai drama today, lol some of them doesn’t make any sense, not just because I don’t understand like most of it, but – some of the plot lines .. sucks, really bad xD And also the quality of the drama’s really differs maybe just a tad too much, like you get the feeling they just shouldn’t even have filmed the darm thing TT^TT – Nevermind lol, things like that exists.

Hmm.. I feel kinda lonely, have I said that? I got no one really to talk too and all.. and like.. When I was out eating dinner with my uncle like .. Monday, we got hot steam pot buffet – I’ll just say right away I’m not fit for things like that AT ALL, but lol he wanted to eat it and all so it was fine, ate mostly sushi kimbap and fish, and a little bit of chicken, it was quiet good, though I kinda got SERIUOSLY annoyed by my uncle trying to keep feeding me and like I was about to throw up due to all the heavy food. UGH

But, yeah feeling a bit tired actually and like I wanna update on at least one more thing, still need the Hana Kimi one! GRRRRR I WANNA UPDATE THAT ONE

Byebye. Night~

End 9:00PM

Journal: 28/06/11 – Tuesday

28/06/11 – Tuesday

So I decided to make a somewhat thing like something similar to a journal or maybe a diary, but nevertheless I feel like I have to keep a track of mind, place and time. As well as keeping up with my English grammar skills, hahaha, OTL – oh well.

But, I wanted to keep a little.. sanity in this feeling of being alone and not be able to consult to anything online or talking to anyone that actually understand me, or what I’m going though, and what I want.

To start off, this is my 5^th day in Thailand, still trying hard to settle in and all, decorating my apartment is going really slow and such I don’t know completely to do it so, like; I have a lot of posters and sticky things I wanna hang up but, like right now my aunts are living here with me, and for starters, they can’t speak English. They no nothing regarding English, and speak Isaan Thai, which makes things just a little more difficult, seeing how this is.. Bangkok. Oh, and also, they actually don’t know their way around in Bangkok as well. AT ALL. Heck I know how to get to Paragon and they don’t. I know how to take the sky train, they don’t. The list is short but, they know NOTHING e_e

-          Frustrating I tell you all.

It’s late, like 11:20 PM (Now writing this exact sentence) and it’s not that I’m not sleepy but, I feel a sleep at 4PM and woke up at 6:45PM, so not that tired, yet.

I now got a fridge, 2 fans, I dunno if the rice cooker is actually mine, but got that too and a few basic things like, bowls for dish wash and clothes, shampoo and body wash, deodorant and such + a water –google proper spelling-  ~ Hurray.

I’ve taken a lot of photos lately but, I have no idea how to like upload them to my fb, which is like the only place I can upload all at the freaking same time, ugh ugh ugh. But, I’ve promised, I should like send friend requests to my teachers too, they wanna know what’s going on, THEY TOLD ME SO, OK.

Emotionally.. I’m very frustrated, mainly due to my aunts, like being in a apartment with them most of the day not really knowing what to say, or at least how to respond back to them, when I understand most of what they say or try I can’t, ugh, tell them anything properly. Heck they only understand yes and no. DGskfhashjdkajshdhasdhahfhjsdhaskjdh- ufg. Makes me wanna throw up.

Speaking of throwing up, all the girls here, so are PRETTY.

Like skinny, petite (not the French dress size lol), cute, pretty, perfect, beautiful, slim, thin, healthy looking hair, smooth skin, overall so appealing! IT FUCKING HURTS. I even cried myself to sleep yesterday night, after having a conversation about ‘it’ with my mother, finally she’s useful but, kept saying things that made me cry more, oh how parents like to kick you when you’re down, my case more like drowning. HA seeing them all the time is just .. hard. Really.. hard.

Like there we’re these 3 cute students, Thammasat students, hell yeah! At the pier with us and like they and my aunts began talking about me and all, where I was from, my mother, that I was going to study Thai at Thammasat and alllllllllllll ksjdhfkjaskjdf that, and how they thought I was pretty and like, no, they had so much better skin and hair, slimmer legs, and I could like poke my eyes out. I was like 5 times bigger than them! I wanted to cry so hard on the ferry going away, they were so polite and cute, and they thought I was the pretty one! Like, no! No no no! They had thigh gaps.. and like.. super slim calf’s, slim arms.

I want that.

Hahhh .. – Take some deep breaths.

I’ll stop for now, right now I feel like I should be up for a little longer.

I actually binge’d without knowing it.

My aunt bought this hot chocolate thingy I used to drink when I was just real tiny and like, there is two brands of hot chocolate I LOVED love back then; Ovaltime and Milo and like Milo is the ‘healthy’ edition, without sugar! And .. Ovaltime.. is not, it’s filled with sugar! First time getting real sugar again! NOOOOOOOOOO – Dieting went so smooth right now! Even though I eat like too little in the way of I should munch on something or my metabolism will be of no use and I’ll just bloat and be fat. Me no gusta, ok. Me and thigh gap have  a date this year and I won’t miss it!!

And I want pretty good looking skin like all the others here too so.. body lotion and bb cream, anyone? LOL.

There’s so many things I wanna write right now but, I’ll wait, more days to come and like, my registration is first on the 15^th July.. still lots of time, OTL NOT.

-Night.

Ello my lovelies - Greeting from Thailand

It's hot. It's awesome.



- I'm so jet lagged I keep feeling dizzy and too sick to write because I haven't been resting yet. HA

Shopping Saturday

Or I had to go shopping. 

My mom just thought that I had to get an travel/flight outfit for when I leave Denmark here on Wednesday, so yes we left early and bought some things on sale in H&M, I really normally hate mostly everything in Danish stores - it's just not me.

It all came down to 430 kr for 2 outfits and a pair of "normal" shoes. Pretty fine, still too much in my head xD by normal I mean high heel less, it's so weird e_e

Sun screen ON SPRAY<3 & those "no heel" shoes C: 

1 set of "baggy" pants, extreme thin fabric perfect to hide my thighs&the hot weather there!&a long top it's actually really green.. and it's difficult to wear, my bra shows e_e

My favorite pants! And they're from the kids department, I can actually fit it.. lets forget about the stretching fabric shall we? OTL and they are just as comfy as the pair before, just smaller and have my "bag" to it between the thighs!<3

A random weird cut top my mom wanted me to have.. I DA NA.

But yeah! Kinda sums up what I have been doing .. and is done with, now I need to do drawing commissions and the Harry Potter workout challenge! 

But, first - a nap. Bye lovelies~

I am feeling lazy, yes~~ I should pack my stuff ;~~;

Goodbye my Lover

SO LITTLE TIME LEFT. Yes, I’m spazzing, I’m nervous, I’m scared, of course I’m scared. I’m going aboard, for a year, or 5 I might not return to Denmark, I might, but I don’t want to lol.

But, yeah. Since I’m kinda moving out – did I tell you I’m paying everything out of my own pocket?

No sweet mommy helping me here guys, I’m on my own. 
So I’ve decided not to have wi fi, it’s too expensive for me to actually have my own, and there’s no such thing as ‘free wi fi at starbucks’ here love. 

Sad reality, as much as I’m an clearly found addict to the internet TUMBLR I have to say goodbye for 24/7 online me. I’ll like be on once in a while, web cafe’s are loved, VERY MUCH, so I’ll walk around with my usb cable A LOT with updates and whatnot, just to swing by a web cafe. But due to the time difference I doubt I’ll be on at the same time as my friends.. it’s really sad, I’ll miss A LOT of people. Many good friends will like forget me, and have no real way to contact me, unless lol they’re in Thailand and have my number..

Yes. I have to get.. a life.

Sounds really scary really omg hahahhaahahhaa.

I won’t get to use my laptop a lot as I used too, or I will, but not to as much .. online things. 
SOB SOB SOB.
not even for school either, Thailand goes by the pen and paper, ass in the seat and eyes on the blackboard, so much different from the Danish schooling lol, or at my school that is. 

Computers on 24/7 GA.

I shall hug my laptop James a lot soon. Imma miss you guys a lot..

.. What.

Well, yeah. That's like the thing I'm asking myself WHAT

Someone stole my yogurt

Here

At school.

WHAT

I have no idea why someone would do such a thing. 

1. It's yogurt.
2. It's mine
3. Not anyone else's 
4. Over half of it was left and someone ate almost all of it, threw it out right next to the zink.

What the fuck is "your" problem?

Here at our school we have had loads of problems regarding, stealing. And like yeah, things as speakers have been taken too, but food FOOD have been the top 3 thing to snatch and that's like - fucking annoying.

I shouldn't think highly about my yogurt, it was "just" yogurt, but it's an expensive brand, 0,1% fat, and well MY FAVORITE VANILLA MF VANILLA I TELL YOU. I'm pissed, oh yes I am. 

Ugh, when I find you.. just you wait..

Now I'm just pissed, and I'll snap at my censor during the exam due to this. Thanks bitch (I know it has to be a girl)

I'll hunt you down.

 - I have to let it go, gotta practice my part (where I read for censor) e - e

Resume of my life the last few months! HELLO~

Long time no see. Yes, it’s been a couple of months since the last blog entry sadly, and these might be the last for .. long time probably.

But, one news at the time!

A lot have happened in these I think .. 3 months? (Since last blog post) Firstly..

• I GOT ACCEPTED INTO COLLEGE, IN FREAKING BANGKOK, THAILAND BB! THAILAAAAAAAAAAAND. Heck yeah, I freaking made it in!

I actually also made it into the 2 other schools/colleges in Denmark I applied, but now I can awesome'ly enough to call them and decline due to me going aboard, seriously I cried when I got the mail where they told me I got in, and I read it during English class, I was so happy, I couldn’t sit still at all! Or focus on class for that matter, I even hugged people I didn’t even like, I was THAT happy. Lol OTL.

So I’ve been really busy with like preparing stuff for when I go down there, I’ve gotten an apartment not far from my College/University (It’s both lol so cool) it’s just next to the market, and food market~ Oh , the yummy fruit I’m going to eat~ it’s on the 4^th floor, though no elevator, but heck, my legs will get exercise every-fucking-day hell yeah for me that’s just great and if I need workout I can just run up and down the stairs instead of running outside ke. Which probably will happen, muhahaha.

My collegeuniversity is called/named; Thammasat CollegeUniversity and is like the 2^nd biggest school in all Thailand. We wear uniforms, yes. I HAVE TO WEAR A UNIFORM. A skirt and a shirt, great. NOT OTL IMMA DIE. But, at least I have the option to choose it myself, like it’s basically just a black or marine blue skirt and white shirt, so I’ll wear a long skirt and shorts underneath along with lace thin leggings, I don’t want sun on my legs, or me for that matter haha. I hate tan skin, I look weird, generally due to my skin color being pale YELLOW, lol.

• I have my final exams this week, or kinda just my only oral exams, I didn’t have physics this year, even though I kinda regret not having it ugh.. nvm nvm. And I didn’t have Deutch either OH LUCKY ME, I also didn’t go up in Math, which is like the wises decision this year, pfff I would have died.

Danish tomorrow and English on Friday, just thinking like really about it now, my stomach twist and my head hurts, I’m like having angst about going up, since I haven’t really prepared anything, studied at all, just barely analyzed it here last Thursday, till my roommate had to get the formula back so I kinda couldn’t finish the analyze either.. ugh, I’m going to get such a low grade .. /le sob and despair. 

But, seriously I’m scared. I’ve always been scared of oral exams because well, before I started at boarding school I had never-ever-in-my-whole-fucking-non-existing-life been prepared for exams, never had one, or just had a test one. Na-da. Zero. 

I was shitting bricks like 2 months before the written ones, they went fine, good dark  lord I was relieved when it was over, but like just a month after when I heard about the orals I like had a meltdown lol. And I cried and almost fainted out of fear during my English oral, and I got such a bad grade.. I was ready to cry, which I did after as well lol, my mother was so disappointed and hell, SO WAS I! 

But, my teacher was kinda mean to me during the thing.. ugh, nevermind that though, past is past, I’m just scared still. Mostly for English think it’s going to be so much worse, because people are expecting me to get like straight in that, I’ve never gotten an A in oral .. I hate myself for that, all my friends that are just as good or better/lower than my level gets A and I get like D. Fuck me.

• I’m leaving Denmark on the 23th of June, jep, not that much time left, it’s amazing, I still can’t believe it. 

My friend, sister Wendy, she’s my sister ok my sister from another mother! She’s attending uni in London, just flew there like a week ago and is all .. woah, awesome. She’s so cool with it, and she’s going to be there for 4 years! I’m planning on applying for Uni too, but I doubt I’ll get in lol. I’m that stupid, and they have a high pressure on Math and I can barely pass Math, I MADE IT WITH ONE FUCKING POINT. 

Yeah my short update. OTL ITS NOT THAT SHORT. 

I’ll have more updates later!