ღ How's March? ღ

◍ Hmmmmmmm, honestly? 

It's very hard to explain and still I'm not sure about how personal I should take my blog. I used to think that I could make it a personal blog but, as time went by, it just seemed like an uncertain thing about that "personal space" after a few (2-3) classmates followed me on my blog. 

I've had some issues about sharing my web life to the people "around me" : By around we all know those people in your class that just "think" that you're like

'' WEIRDO → → →  (｡△｡ ) . . . ''

Or so it was for me .. ha..ha 

Anyhow!

The past week have been "slow" - ish. Went with my Media class on a small really effing short! to Channel 3:

The biggest Entertainment Company in Thailand

Awesome awesome  ┐(´△`)┌  ~

Us waiting to enter the studio building! HOT VERY HOT THAT DAY!

(●´□`) Ahhhhhh ~♥

Ayaha-chan♥ (&me/cough)

Tivoli spejl billed! lol, jk (Danish)

And no one can tell we were talking about KPOPヽ(〇･u･)人(･u ･〇)ﾉ

Yen & Tom (yes, the old guy is a student as well) looking very producer-ish!

Very blurry picture of me - Taken by Kenta - I LOOK THE BEST DURING BLURR 555

The 5PM news clip with us! //taken at Amarin Mansion Lobby ゝ∀･)

I have no idea ... I was checking the pose and he was adjusting the lens ...

Then me and Kenta went Cheese Cake House hunting but, after 2 hours of searching we gave up, had dinner and went to Terminal21 and I had a nice "photoshoot" (of derp'ness) with Nichkhun from 2PM!

 vﾟ  ﾛﾟ)☆

Cool pose ftw.

I would so be perfect for a 2PM MV, charming am I not  (σ `∀´)σ

Feel like my following posts are going to be rather informative and just getting the whole catching up rushing feeling to them .__. I don't like that D:

☆お誕生日だよ－！생일축하해♪ HBD☆

Happy Birthday to me lalalala☆彡 

ヽ(〇･△･)人(･△･〇)ﾉ
- dance my little readers, celebrate me! lol, jkjk.

My 18th birthday was on the 04/03
- So more exact it was not that long time ago (about a week/8days-ish) and I finally turned 18!!

Wohoooo! ((*@>▽<@)ﾉ彡☆*:･ﾟ◃:
Been some dreadful 6 months (｡△｡ )* being teased by all
of the Uni kids with; jail bait, minor, kid, 銃七歳 or こども ... etc

Panda towel from Dolly♡

Chaho (MATCHA♡) from Kenta
(white box) scented rose shaped soap
-from my roomie♡

Rilakkuma PhoneStrap from Jo (send from Korea!♡)
& Misato gave me the BLUE one♡.. w/ a panda on.

POSTERRRRRRRRR♡♡♡♡♡

BACK COVERRRRR

GD EDITION OF ALIVE/BIGBANG 5th (mini...) ALBUM♡

New glasses! I love them already!♡

DERP DERP DERP

BB goods from Ayaha♡ Lol her BD was the 12th
Gave her a 2PM calender + a Chansung phonestrap

It just screamed at me♡ Super comfortable!

 Onto "THE PARTY" = a very casual (I being the one that made it awkward because I felt awkward, stupid and me blaaaaah) lovely dinner with my friends + Dolly (She's not thaaaaat much in my life but, guess she felt like it was okay for her to join without an invite.. but, I forgive her for the Panda♡)

+ I was very happy my crush said yes to coming as well.. ♡/le blushing dead.

Kenta and Tomoki talking about sports..  (ﾉ*´ I`)ﾉ

 (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ  (ﾉ*´I`)ﾉ

DERP DERP DERP (つ∀-) Glad it's not me ohohoho

OTL

...  ( ﾟ∇ﾟ) Such a mature 18 year old

NOMNOMNOM

Something with eel-Don

Laughed when he got his "REGULAR"-sized set
= He eats barely anything( =∇=)''

Kizuku arrived on THE DAY at night a few hours before the day was over

... Tho' this is pictures from the day after my BD (●´□`)/

- WHERE WE HAD MY PATHETIC LOOKING HappyBirthDay CAKE!

It says "HBD DACKI" OK.

Untold fairytales.｡×°*☆

So yeah many things are making me feel slightly more distance from life so blogging ACTIVELY and lots of things .. Having troubles hahaha is probably an understatement but, yeah.

• I feel like I'm just slobbing around and well it fits pretty well but, a lot of things are getting onto me and I'm just so "emotionally" hurt I can't seem to be able to open up but mentally I'm tearing it all down.

• lots of things but have no courage to wear it. No matter what I actually attract A MOFO FUCKING LOT OF STARES it's not "just" Thais (pervs, creepers, bimbo bitches etc ... T n T) and now in my state, confidence level is dead and my temper is so ******* short as f*ck now so I have tons of cordinations and styles sets of clothing - etc I wanna try but too frightened to do it at all...

But I'll post about it later in the weekend.. Since my birthday is coming up on Sunday. Interesting right I'm going to turn 18 - HAHAHAHA wrong. I haven't really celebrated it since I was 10. Sad maybe, I don't really care - it's hard to miss something youvenever heard about it's not like how I had my birthday celebrated isn't the typical thing (would turn into story time lol) so yeah but, I promised to do at least a dinner and dunno anything about planning something that has ME as a more important person ..... I still don't know where to go eat !?(･_･;?!

Anyhow ••••• ☆

Just to make February short;

Lots tons of stuff - my phone //super sad face!!! My entire txt memory is gone I had texts from like ... Beginning of being here in Thailand and ... Tomoki's messages back when things were a delicate blooming relationship.. I wanna cry guys ; n ; • lost my mp3, broke my red ICE watch, broke the NEW mp3 I had bought... It was a really unlucky week .. Lol.

Got myself some; MONSTER BEATS, iPod touch (3rd generation second hand chill), new cute wedges etc .... And went to 2 kpop concerts:

CNBLUE BLUESTORM
2PM HANDS UP

2PM was the first one .. Ever and seriously: I could not have been happier they know how to put on a sexy performance ladies! Omg. Seriously go check BACK2U it's like sex. It was all fun cute awesome /sex

Lol CNBLUE WS SUPER DIFFEENT and I kinda couldnt feel that vibe I had with 2PM but when they showed Minhyuk on the big screen being all hot and hitting it off hard // lol I'm just sex'ing this up but, I still have to go get it into my head that they were ALL within lie just 5m ... Omg!!!!!!!!! I could touch ;Yonghwa, the bass player, Nichkhun, Wooyong, insert just almost all if 2PM and i made eye contact with so many and got winks and perky lips and ABS//COUGHCOUGH*die* in my face!! Not to mention other more 'dangerous' stuff .... Like in my eyes e_e and not the sext kind.

Year of the [G] Dragon

 HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR GUYSSSS ♡

Σ (」゜ロ゜)」 ｡｡｡ gosh I'm so behind w/ everything.. (✗д✗||;|）

✪  I've not been able to update nor follow some
of my New Year Resolutions, but bare with me .. 
I will spare you very very soon' + give
you all lots&&lots of yummy pictures!! ✪

On to the :

ﾟ*･ : * ✧ﾟ･ : New Years Resolutions guys! : ･ﾟ✧*: ･ *ﾟ
( ＞◡＜)9


I'm a person that tends to set too goals or rather RESCRITIONS towards myself, or that's what people tell me, that I tend to schedule up too many things and not have time to be social, eh, I am social!!
- I like .. sometimes (･ᴗ･)

But, I'm trying this time not to make it sound like suicide and overworking myself, like some have been before hand. |づ ￣ ³￣)づ soh sorryh na gaiz.


Money: ☆ 

• Return to saving mode→ I'm a low budget exchange student!!
• Think more than twice before buying stuff.
  → in clothing/acc/not daily need section;
  and I have to leave many things behind in the end.. /le sobs.
• Get a part time job!
  → We all need money..
  And I like working ᕙ(⇀‸↼ )
  "look at my flexi' muscular stick arms"
• Don't convert Baht (or any other currency) to Danish Krone
  → just because its cheaper doesn't make it a "great" buy
  if it means 10,000B pr item ..

Time: ✧

• Spending my free time wisely
  → Got too much of it, so going to pay 120% focus on studying languages
• Keep a better /orginaised view over things
  → I already make "to do lists" for each day and bought my first schedule'calender thingy ever, wow. (And it's Panda'cute!)
• Try to make an effort!
  → Not just in daily life, but need to tough up and actually be determinted enough to want and EARN a good/top grade!
• Take care of myself
  → Duh, been to the hospital. Major hairloss. Cuts and assults. I need care ok :C
• Skin-hair-health-mental; over all-care → Before it's too late!

Mind: ★ 

• Don't be too negative → Not everything in the entire world going wrong can't be my fault .. (right?)
• Become more confident in me-self!! - Not just "web" self
  → 2%'s selfesteem = 1% to wake up and dare to face another day, additional 1% = be outside w/ other people, still breathing.
• Don't think 'too' much → It affects my mental health/gives stress.

Love life: ♥

• Don't let a heartache/'fluffy' feelings effect/hit my friends → I tend to be very good at like invovling friends and dear ones into feeling sad moods.. I don't like that.
• "And she was head over hills for him" - Da'mé → Can't be a headless chicken running after something; mindlessly!!
• Be 'slow' - Not agressive! → lol, "stop getting drunk then".

Stomach/body/HEALTH: ♣

• Eat healthy! → 'Cause I hate mostly ALL types of junk/not healthy food
• Say no, when it really needs to be said no to → If people offer sweets/etc I can't eat due to sugar/oil, I need to say no or it'll hurt a lot ><..
• Remember to eat!! → .. More than once pr day
• Straighten my back, yes → I should, no hunch back for this gurl in 50 years thanks!

Random shit(!): ◍

• Learn to cook Thai food - like a pro → Cause they even offer cooking class this semester, omg, win
• Become a regular at the library .. → Just to try the whole; studying at the library thing out
• Make Royal Pains the best pains on your screen! → We know it's true.
• Train my ass → It's Ass'ome.
  
  
  
  
  
  IM SO SORRYYYY - Love ya~(*ó▿ò*) PRETTY PICTURE FOR YOU!!

 Goodnight .. //dies.

Fresh air in 2012 na!

ﾟ:✲ ﾟ･:~✲ ﾟ･:~✲   Happy holidays my beautiful readers!  ✲~:･ﾟ ✲~:･ﾟ ✲: ﾟ  

(Yes I'm in the picture. Girl in the middle holding the "bow"/ ribbon?)

 Yet blogger keeps being a bissssh and wont let me UPLOAD any pics.. working on it!! SORRY NA

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡 ┻━┻ gonna flip tables soon gosh!!

Anyways All jolly and season fat I suppose that the holidays are nearing an end and I'm a bit behind with the wishes, but it's never too late as long as it's not like.. March and I'm all "Happy New Year guys!☆☆" in your faces. Since it's my birthday in March I would be.. pretty like, yo guys it's my birthday! - Instead of holidays /le drifting off topic. |｡ ∀ ｡)

Anyways instead of packing 1 post with TONS of text and "borrowed" pictures: since blogger wont let me put up my own.. still working on that one. So I'm just breaking it all down into like different posts and all but, first off: picking up after finals. yes

After finals it was like some sort of really pissed off feeling just like became a bit lighter, even though I was still like, just 5 days of school? ..
..and this is it? (ಠ___ಠ)ノ fuck.

Yeah pretty disappointed but, I shouldn't complain, in this life style everything is so ~ (・-----・) - yeah it's just like you really have nothing to do, even if you have a job I feel like, I would be more than HAPPY to do something - on the other hand I can imagine others being envious of my current position: or at the time, 1st semester was defiantly so fucking wasteful I'm only blaming myself for being in conflict with myself- 2012? No more! (=Haku´∀｀)人(´∀｀2012=) - we so fat lol.

But, anyhow, my roomate and 2 of our friends, traveled to Malaysia, Kuala Lumpur on the 13th like just 4 days before I had to go to Malaysia and like go to Johor Bahru .. ok. so I was alone for that amount of days and was just doing pre-shopping for the trip. Which was a small golf- sports bag, some makeup, clothes and blaaah, like just 6 days. so yeah - but, the trip was nice! First time with AirAsia: "Always delayed, totally normal" - erm, so it seems. ( ･ｪ･ ) <- Imagine stone face for 5 hours like that.

Other than being an hour and 45 minutes late, my transit flight from KL to JB I arrived like a couple of minutes before midnight and met my gougeous 'sister' from Malaysia, Wendy!♡♡ It's your "We meet online" story and when we met like, real, it was so... sooo .. just really I even had watery eyes guys! 

Σ( ；∀： /le emotional.

It was like, omg, gurl hold me, wait- YOU'RE HERE HOLDING ME. /insert epic tumblr meme gif w/ epicness. We had a lot of hugs, I did for one attract a lot of attention being in shorts - lol. And her hair was blue and reddish. HAHAHAHA, people. It was an amazing "week" but, both of us were pretty jetlagged for like 2 days so we just, like, were slobs on the ground, bed, couch and like, just talked, like we "always" did. The whole experience is like.. wow ♪♡~

WOW OK.

But, coming back after having such a family feeling, like not just 

"It's just my mom and me" 

- no, real family? I've never felt that. It was defiantly missed as soon as I was in the Airport 

KL and had 5 hours wait before the next flight back to Thai♥ 

Which I really missed a lot!! But, like Wendyyyy.. come here too na!! ♥♥♥

QдQ) ~ (sob)

But, coming back on the 23rd I had no sense of date, time, whatsoever, international season like Christmas. And since DANISH PEOPLE "CELEBRATE" Christmas 24th "evening" style 

yeah - I had completely forgotten everything about that. 

Till my mom called while I was waiting for a bus at Central World 

(follow post to 'this' story will come soon~) 

around like 11PM, she was wishing me a Merry Christmas: "Happy Christmas!" 

- It's not happy, it's merry! ノ( º _ ºノ) ...
 I did correct her, but yeah when the bus came, I got on and like just listened to music.. 

Holy shit, it's Christmas tomorrow.

Lol.

Yes I forgot Christmas Eve. 

And yes, I did NOT celebrate Christmas either. 

But, did actually get presents: 

Kenta, Ayaha and my uncle 

 tho' uncle gave me money and (paid for) massage haha! 

Yeah I was surprised. 

•  Haruka is in Japan still (Left the 28th morning hours) and said she bought me a present.
  From Japan, I'm excited! 

• And Ayaha had mine homemade, so nice of her~ And her favorite candies + chocolates in mini edition, she knows I can't eat sweets, nurrr♡
• Kenta .. gave me BIGBANG stuff - trolling gift. Because I gave him Yoona (SNSD) pictures and a frame with her picture + cards. LOL ALL YOONA MHAHAHAH. 

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧YOONA BEAMMMMMMMM♡*:･ﾟ ♡*:･ﾟ ♡*:･ﾟ ♡*:･ﾟ ♡*:･ﾟ✧!!!!

Actually I had gift to many: Minami I gave a small cute set: a ring with a cat on (she likes cats) and a necklace that matched! Haruka I gave a Union Jack mug! She LOVES Union Jack. Kisuku I gave a Totoro phone strap + "sugar canes" FROM DENMARK. I'm just so awesome. And for Tomoki I had my mom to order me a Japanese-Danish dictionary because .. dun dun dun!!!

- They don't have in Japan!!! OMG.

So I wanted to give him that one, like, really this guy have been studying Danish 10 hours a day the ENTIRE holiday. And really, since he's not speaking with anyone in Danish or hearing the prouncese and shit, I'm still like, your efforts boy. Oh I wanna hug him ; ; But, I couldn't get it here so .. I gave him panda stuff and a Tea Break - English Milk tea. HE LOVES IT. and really it's so super fucking delicious. but, is limited to Paragon only like, I dunno why e___e

fuckers. but yes. My jolly christmas guys! ♡♡♡

High-so

So the last of the 2011 Birthdays have been celebrated! My good friend Kenta (Ken-chan) Had his 21st Birthday on the 1st of December, it was a pretty interesting event. 

I was with him on the day when it was midnight and yeah I gave him my present - I had tried all day to find a t-shirt saying "I'm not drunk - .. but, I'm working on it!" Because he had shown me a picture of one he found in MBK and he regret not buying it and I thought, it might be easy to find! Printed text on t-shirts are so common here! 

.. I was VERY wrong. But, nevermind I found a pretty cool t-shirt with a beer on it. He was happylooking when he opened it so I hope he really did like it, hah .. Or else he can give it to me, I have other people to gift! 

But, discovered an interesting fact that turning 21 for Japanese is as meaningless as adding more sushi to a plate of sushi if you're already full. been eating sushi/salad for the past week  So nothing seemed to happen! AT ALL! And even though I don't celebrate my own birthday it seemed kinda.. sad. Like he had just been sleeping most of the day, eaten in his room, no one had gone and wished him Happy Birthday, even the staff had forgotten his Birthday .__. What is life.

So at like 7PM or so me and my friend Cannus (American! And Chinese) went to Central and I looked through alot of Swensens, I'm surprised they have more than 3 in 1 building e_e but, nevertheless I finally found the perfect cake! - Cookie's n Cream w/oreo's and cherries! Some EVERYONE would like right? They just only had the big ones to 750B - which is more than 150kr. In my opinion that's a fucking lot for a cake. But, it was in Ice cream cake, which made it all the more awesome? But, I DID BUY IT.

I burned my fingers doing this haha. And I had to light the candles because Tomoki is a panda.

He looks really happy right? .. Ahh, it makes me smile. But, not just the cake! Me and Cannus talked her roommate, Minami(!<3) into getting all the Japanese together to wish him congratulation and of course we needed people to eat the bloody cake. Also one of my other American friends (He's Cambodian tho') Peter joined in on the cake eating! It was a nice night, and I'm glad he had a good Birthday :'3 /le sobs.

I LIKE TO MAKE PEOPLE SMILE AND FEEL HAPPY OK. 

"Men in Black" - Minami's words. God we laughed at them so hard.

Everyone gave this guy Soy Milk as present!
I feel like he liked them more than my gift ; w ;
- But, hey i also gave him a Soy Milk.

Kenta has a unhealthy relationship to Soy Milk. It's like his fetish - his words not mine! I SWEAR.

But, moving on. Today - or wait, I would like to say, I've been like shopping for presents and such it feels weird not buying anything for myself, not that I'm super needy and shit but, being here I mainly spend for myself or spend loads of money on cake for other people wtf since well.. things are cheap and awesome here. But, YES yesterday I went to Centralworld in Siam, had sushi in Kobeko, since I can't eat hot meals we thought this or salad. So that. We went to Uniqlo - Brand new! Just opened last November in Bangkok, I've only heard about it, but now I'm like sucked into the winter collection! I have an unhealthy urge for knit when I'm Thailand. But, I only bought one thing.. because the whole fucking center have sale!!

Went to Forever21 and they ALSO had a pretty large sale! But, since it was my first time ever to be in a Forever21 store I was like wandering around for hours (not hours but, felt like it) and another great thing! I get 10% discount on shit in there because I'm a Thai student! Hell yeah! Life is good.

Actually we also stopped by Top Shop - never heard about it before myself, but it's some American brand? Cannus was like - we should check it out! I liked their shoes and stockings and like socks. I was sooooo close to buy over knee socks for like 234B they were amazing! So cute and soft. Fucking regret not to buy, grrrr! Even wanted them in beige and I like never buy colors. But, nothing got purchased in that shop!

found a shop called FOX and holy- their Winter collection is so /drool - I love it, but, also it's expensive of course, even with being on sale, since Winter clothes are funnily enough in this case, motherf'ing expensive. But, bought some socks - I like socks - knee high in light grey for 130B so I can manage, so soft.

BUT TODAY. YES TODAY - Or later at 5PM I'm going to meetup with a group of friends - Cannus and Minami set it up, so "all" of the Japanese are going as well, and so am I. We're going to Centara to get drinks and enjoy a freak BEAUTIFUL view on Red Sky. It's bar, but, it's really nice! I went there yesterday with Cannus just to check it out and like take a picture to prove we're fucking awesome and so high class we always go to places like that. MHAHAH. But, it's expensive ;^; I wanted the cheapest thing but, that was all soft drinks! And still 130B for a coke + 10% service charge .__. erm, I'll rather get the juice but to 150B >> .. But, it was on Cannus cause I told her I didn't have anymore cash on me so yay minor gets treated! ~ And anyway I'm not allowed to drink till the 25th due to the dyspepsia but, today is the last day of cold food~ TOMORROW I CAN EAT!

Just to show you how it looks like here's the link to their website.

Outside 1st level. - Part of the restaurant

Inside - Restaurant. They have amazing decoration!
They have giant feathers and gems hanging from the ceiling *-*

They have a live band&Singer on the top! Normally it's a Thai lady (foxy one!). 2nd level - Thé Bar.

But, need to get going and find out what to wear.. I don't have any clothes for going out and like half of my clothes are dirty and needs laundry e_e perfect timing ugh. shopping again with Cannus later oh god, hahah!

Time is becoming in relevant

I feel so bad about the earlier post about the dance video, putting life into my Youtube account and all that happy stuff! Been difficult lately, 2 weeks of school, or not so much school but, struggling with weird things ever since I came back to Bangkok after the flood. A lot of things happened, not just being glad getting back into school, but really crappy things which always happens .. tend to happen. 

I'll break it into short pieces since I really wont be motivated to keep my blog alive at the moment since I have my final tomorrow (Still have final papers, but it's like my only actual - test examination)

• My closest friend Rassamee had to leave the Thai studies program at my Uni and go back to the US the Sunday (I arrived in BKK Friday) 5AM in the morning, was with her all weekend, escorted her to the Airport at crap at night - Fucking saddest moment to start off my return to normal life. I miss her so much, she was such an important person to me, not that other people aren't important. but really it was just different. What can I say, we just really had a good connection and understanding of each others life.

•  School/Makeup classes: had ridiculously long hours per class, the first week, I have no idea what happened but, after makeup classes during the weekend and like not mention 9AM-4PM hours long classes, the weekend all of sudden turned to school days and 5 days of what would have been my typical normal week of class and school I had the entire week off, and had my last classes Saturday and Sunday, really fucked me up. 

• Eating: for the last 2 weeks I have barely eaten ANYTHING. After having a food poisoning at my families in Pattaya, my appetite just disappeared like, almost instantly, hardly had more than some jelly to eat cause it almost would feel uncomfortable, almost sicking .. more on that in the other part.

• Throwing up - kinda talks for itself, it's not like I didn't try to eat, trust me. OH GOD MY SOM TAM GAWD Y U NO STAY IN ME

•   Black outs, fainting, dizziness the list of this is endless, but I ended up with severe pains in my upper part of my abdominal upper body blah blah, and well got admitted to the hospital after hours of painful screaming, and feeling like my ribcage was going to tear me apart and that I was going to throw up a bucket of stomach acid. I got blood sample taken, an xray, request on a urine sample and more touching/pressing on my stomach which was like fucking excruciating worst pain I've ever felt in my entire life as if skin and whatnot was going to rip and burst from my body. After that shit, tears, and all of that finally I got a giant dose of morphine (some painkiller or whatever can't remember how to spell it) and everything was soft, panda's everywhere and flimmery stars, not to mention I felt numb and no pain, such a heavenly state. 

• Last thing.. My last final is tomorrow (Friday 9th, 13:00 - 16:00) then semester is over and I have holidays, like really officially, and then on the 15th is the deadline for mostly all final paper/take home exams and I'm wrapping it all up in the weekend, cause I'm going to Malaysia on the 18th! To meet my "sister" online support there and stay with her and her family for almost a week, it is truly a high light of my dim lighted mind as I write this. 

Thanks guys, for whoever took time to read it, I had a Give away planned in favor of the holidays Christmas and New Years I'm not sure if it's going to be set to life but, it's still just a small one since I'm just a poor student who had to pour out 5000B for medical bill and medicine. Hahhh.. 

Stay safe and be careful na!