Im just a mess

an update on my life... Bangkok flood is really bad.

Let me show you pictures of the flooding in my area, which is where the biggest hospital is located, Siriraj is located. It's important and loads of people gets treated daily, and some of the worst traffic cases are located and 'that' area other than Siam of course.

Yesterday, when we decided to fled Bangkok.

Just low water, "just" up to our knees..

On the lower level of the street.

People getting evacuated in our area

People panic parking on the express way. fakking idiots 

Our awesome ride to the bus station so we could GET THE FUCK OUT

We have more pictures, the ride to here - Khon Kaen, took more than 10 hours due to flooding in areas all around us, so we had a long ride.. not to mention worrying about the rest of the people at Amarin, since the water level is rising, getting more serious and not to mention really dangerous.

It's going to go up to 2.6 meters by today .. In just my area, and it's expanding at rapid speed since the barriers around Ayuthattaya have broken and water is heading fast towards Bangkok, central plain..

My uni have postponed classes, any school resuming will first happen on the 15th. Our finals are on the 28th. Our BAS (British, American Studies) have been canceled till the 28th, since their American teacher just left Thailand 2 weeks ago and wont be back until then. Thammasat is really bad at giving us proper information about the dangerous situation, as much as I've loved it here, I would defiantly not recommend going during rain season at least, and maybe not pick Thammasat as your exchange program.

Thank you for reading this, I'll update with more info, about my life on everything and try and find better pictures.

lol, for once I'm on them for like, real.

Leaving Pattaya soon after a family visit, to see my new baby niece! She is SO adorable. And it's rare for me to say that, since I get the big case of creeps when I see kids, and most of the time.. - they annoy me.


- Yes. I'll be a brilliant mother someday! I can't imagine me even getting married, since who the hell would marry me 555. 


I've been here since Friday (the 8th Oct), arrived around 8PM, I was really toasted, but they prepared me yummy food - a lot of food, but it was all spicy so NOMNOM for me! 


Been trying to get back into a workout cycle, it's going fine, it's a bit lose not so effective and mainly just sets of 10's on different areas a few times a day: 3-4 times, since it's such small sets. I'm going to start and only eat healthy food, try not to drink a little as possible, as little as possible. and exercise at least 1 hour day: or a minimum of 30 mins - minimum. But, all is well and I feel much better when I do it, so I'll totally not refrain from doing so! Hahaha! Going to miss the relaxing atmosphere, 100s of channels, also all the spicy food, and coconut yogurt - My new love<3.


btw, been a real nerd, and no lifer by learning a coin trick/move, the one you always see pro poker gamers do with their chips.. HELL YEAH I CAN DO THAT NOW. I can star in James Bond now with my new amazing'ly awesome move. MHAHAHA.


But, I am VERY EXCITED & nervous - My photoshoot is tomorrow evening, my throat closes up on me in all due tension in my muscles and body, so nervous, but also I have giant butterflies in my stomach! I cannot wait, just looking in the mirror thinking about the shoot makes me smile so big, I find myself even more stupid looking than usual. AHAHAHA, but also, I'm just hoping it'll turn out good, I'll enjoy myself and have a great time. Yes, for sure.


Wish me lucky babies! I'll update with pictures soon. I HOPE GOD DAMMIT.

Photobucket is a !"#¤&/11

As there have gone some time, being pretty busy with mid terms and trying to conclude on a proper diet plan along with a daily workout so I could get ready for various things getting freaking foxy would be 1 one of them for sure. But, preparing I've been trying out a 7day package from LUSH MORE - facial masks, and they are fab! Still need to try out the last one, which is a 3D (wth) mask, that works on your neck as well. I'm quiet excited to try it out~ Hope it works!

Trying to work out a solution for my pictures, sometimes often I find blogs with text only sad sometimes, since it can feel like something sterile and hospital clean kinda.. just doesn't make me motivated to comment or read too much, of  course it can waver - I know I sometimes do it, but some post just doesn't have it in them for pictures, but come on, it's not your complete blog! And I like to spam you with pictures. DUH

Just on the first day lol

Just moving in, it's a lot more messy now, haha

Encouraging myself for midterms lol "tough face"

Can I be pissed at blogger? It wont upload my pictures, no matter what size I put them in, no matter what. I will go berserk soon!.. Ok these are the pictures you guys are gonna get -___-;;

Outfits through the week - right hand side used for going to OverStay

Broke my kickass cool nails, normally I don't care but, it hurt just a bit since it was ON the finger and I had to rip it OFF in the end, bleeding a lot and not to mention it was a bit disgusting. HAHA

Just before the midterms started we went to a night club called "OverStay" it's nothing great and kinda reminds me of a drug room of some sort, due to having a upper floor for that exact purpose. It was their 3rd anniversary so Ayaha, the only one who had been there before, suggested it would be a good idea to go and not think about midterms - so yeah me and Haruka went along of course, since I didn't really have been doing anything but, study for 3 days. Oh good grief. Turned out be a shitty event and we left after 30 minutes, since the DJ just to put it nicely - bad as shit.

A lot of other things happened, I got an infection in my eye, had to go to an eye clinic to get it checked got medicine and WOAH - 2 days later it was gone~ Like magic I tell ya! But, also had food poison a bit, and Haruka and Kizuku left town for a trip with their Thai friends - or technically it was an open invitation but, I just didn't feel that great as you might be able to tell .. ANYHOW:

Since I really have issues about being sick and weak I felt like I wanted T closer, and since I have a hard time just talking to Shin and Minami, and I really don't know Misato at all and I didn't think Ayaha was there and I just really wanted to see T since I had been afraid of him and just running away whenever I spotted him from afar for almost 10 days.. But, I really have this feeling he doesn't like me at all or anymore.. I dunno he probably thinks I'm just a stupid kid and if he did 'anything' to me he would be a lolicon, 2944joirjfts - I got him down into my room, not that anything happened at all, but just having him sleep next to me was more than I could ask for<3 And of course I couldn't resist a kiss or 2. 

The day after that night I had a appointment to met with Minami to go to the JJ market: The biggest weekend market in ASIA. Hell yeah. At 9:30AM .. I woke up at 9:15AM holy fuck I actually managed to get down there before her, yes yes, I'm that awesome. And I looked like a jetlagged piece of sh*T. It was really fun, I hope she got to know me better and 'like' me more, I really appreciate that Minami wants to know me better as a friend, but I still sometimes feel awkward about being alone with her, since so many of the foreign students just ignore me, whenever I talk and it bugs me rather hurts. Monday was the day for fitness! I took Haruka and Minami, upon request ~ of course, and hell it was awesome! 2 hours, dude I worked so hard on my inner thighs I can't stretch probably in that area. holy shit I tell ya! But me and Haruka sweated out a few calories in the steam bath and sauna afterwards and Minami took a few more rounds on her butt ;3 ~ But overall it was really fun!

Later that day - Monday the 3rd Oct - I was invited for Nathan's BD dinner, yet another buffet. God my stomach. Did I mention I went to celebrate end of midterm with a giant Shabu Shabu and sushi buffet with Kizuku, Ken& Haruka. OH LORD WE ATE - THEY ATE SO MUCH. OMG. After dinner there was the Birthday Cake eating at Rassamee's place, chocolate cake, I threw up so much after eating that, tasted so bad of plastic I ugh ugh ugh, but that was so much fun..

And that wraps up most of my lost time of blog'ing. But of course there's more let's just not get into it too much now! Bye lads, and ladies <3

Today I didn't feel so good about, or rather being around other people in school and sitting for 3 hours for a lecture - felt like something I felt like doing in my emotional state. pish. So I just stayed in my apartment, cleaned and stuff, wrote with people on FB and stuff. wasting time till Haruka left for Ethnic Class at 11AM - She wanted to do some pre-study. Oh Japanese haha.

Late night, last night;

 My lovely dinner; rice with chilli sauce. HA

Yesterdays outfit! - NOT HAIR NOT THE HAIR FOR dfhjxkvxc!

 But, I had promised to go around to look for a place to make a spare key, so we could have one each ~ So of course got dressed.. even though I really didn't feel like going outside at all, but I promised. PROMISE IS A PROMISE. After walking around a bit, looking like an idiot, with frizzy curly hair, I got frustrated seeing how the guy just was gone from he normally was and I couldn't find anywhere else, so I found this little out-in-an-alley hair dresser; a nice sleeping old lady. She of course woke up as I opened walked in though the open door and she washed my hair, gave me a hair treatment annnnnnnnnd blew it straight and gave me a heat treatment as well ~ so kind! And talkative. 

Just 60 baht. 60 baht. That's cheap!

Then I changed my comfy tshirt into:

Todays outfit. Me and my crazy layers.

 Shirt-set: Bought on the street in Pin Klao for 80 baht.

Pants: Given by ex-roomie from DK - She's a bitch btw.

.. Maybe.

Almost Straight hair!! ; w ;

I was dancing around so it got kinda hot

RIGHT BEFORE THE RAIN

For you guys<3 lol, so dirty.

 Yes, before it rained. I just made it inside, changed my clothes shirt, turned on my iron straightener for my fringe of course. It comes with a cost when you have DEMON CURLS. And then; A lot of wind like just blew in my room and it was SO NICE, I walked out on the balcony, took pictures and enjoyed the nice cooling service~ and then rained just fell like waterwall in my face down. UGH TT__TT So in the "cold" weather I made something I always do when it's "COLD" or rainy.

I'm crazy. Why?

200 degree hot water in my coco! In 30 degrees. HA

Pretty much what I used my afternoon on. Chatting

 The rain was still dripping but, we had plans to go for Khao San Rd. for dinner! At Shoshannan.. something. I can't remember, just that it reminds me of a shoe. But, the food was good! Then after, some of them got dessert, our group wanted to play pool snooker, and drink beer. So we went to 711, got beer and found the Pool Club - Sounds so wrong haha! But, it was pretty cozy, and there were a group of 'hippie' like Japanese people hooking on 1 of the pool tables but, it was okay - I didn't play~~ Uneven number for the win. 5 ppl.

I wanted Kebab.. they didn't have TT TT

My food~ Sharwama w/ salad~

Kizuku'a food! ... a food pancake, I think.

KI-ZU-KU.

I just love this picture. And the guy (Dominic) studies in Aarhus! Epic much.

Rest of the group.

The one in a blue shirt, studies in Copenhagen! She's just not Danish.. wth

POOL

Winner team!

Blue BB<3

I should study.. and eat healthy! ARGH. Tomorrow there's a 2 hour, alll you can drink at NARZ, some bar or something, and lot of us are going. But, I shouldn't you know, due to studies and upcoming photoshoot, the weight. UGH. and so many other things! I tend to be more talkative in Japanese when drinking as well as approaching T-chan when being drinking a bit more. Hell I tell ya ,. HELL.

Going to bed ya'll it's 02:32AM right now. Time sure flies by. DARM ~~

Hair-li-cious unseen spoof!

So a special treat for my readers, is letting you see the transformation of my hair! Even facebook doesn't know, see  that is an accomplishment. Right there. //Tabs shoulder like a boss.

The last post I did was pretty messy not to mention the setting was pretty weird, but since I made it super kicking awesome in word I forgot how much of a diva Word is and it totally kicked my face when I copied the shit text onto blog.. UGH. But, I have better time now to do it so, hurray! //blogging happy style~~

If someone you were unaware of a certain fact - about my hair; Well my mom have been paying me to grow it out for a while now, in a few months it would be a year. So yeah, it grows fast, in a way it feels slow but, it grows fast. I see the change for sure from my short boyish cut to this doll like-shit-looking style it has become, seeing how it's all curls and .. "semi-long hair" using the term from the salon. ORLY. - History told short; I used to have KICKASS LOOOOOOOOOONG TO MY BUTT, hair all these adorable, eatable, yummy (for some - like not me) princess curls. For like ever. Then a mysterious night in Thailand, 14y.o getting sick of my long hair, my tomboyish side was like 99.9999999999999999% all over so. -SNAP- Gone it was~ Over 1m(eter) of hair on the floor, and sexy tomboy Haku was born! MHAHAHAHHAHAAHH. 

-Something like that. lol

 

Before 

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AFTER

... - no comment.

"Hey, I look like an alien o3o"

Creepy face had to get censored.

 

 

 

I got my visa b*tch~

Actually I liked the cut much better when it was styled by the girl, but yeah my hair of course has it's own way of thinking =_= so yeah. What do you think? Suits me or not? :3 ~ And don't mention I look more feminine it's the hairstyle's fault.

Extra pic!

Over&Out!

 

Rise from the dead, revived by wifi!

Well hello fellow .. humans! – I wont call myself human, but I pity you so I’ll go along with it

-          Just for the blog entry this time ;3

It’s been a while since .. last time. //cough. But, there’s always a reason lovelies! Well I started University lol, and heck I’ve also started drinking.. look where that’s taking me, fat and flobby, ugh hating it, so I decided to quit – Of course after I bought 3 bottles of Vodka (Gibley’s) and a –insert name of brand I cant remember- Rum 555! //FAIL.

But, as mentioned, a lot have in fact happened, so let me break it down in timeline and bits so we all can follow it; shall we now? ~Ok.

After I got back to BKK again, and really started school and got “to-know” people I was in same department with, I made friends, yay good for me~ They just lived so far from me, and had lives of their owns and not so much time for me so yet another depressing set back in my oh so cool life atm. I am studying abroad in Thailand, pretty much awesome much. Kkk (Korean)

I’ve made really good friends with;

1.       Rassamee – A half like myself, just American&Thai.

2.       Yumi – A super adorable Japanese girl from Tokyo I met in my Indo friends room! (Happened to be their roommate at that time)

3.       Shiri – A weirdo Indo I really like by now, she’s so silly

4.       Ken (Kenta) – A Japanese guy who helped/helping me to be more positive and try to realize I’m not “alone”

5.       Haruka (!!) – My Japanese roommate!! She’s so cute and pretty, her skin is like porcelain; I envy so bad!!

6.       Kizuku – A Japanese guy, a really good friend. Really good. He’s so nice

7.       Shin(chan) – Kizuku’s roommate, also Japanese.. and a guy.
(Notice all the Japanese people omg.)

8.       Ayaha – A Japanese girl, she’s SUPER CUTE, so naive and spacy, A-DO-RA-BLE

9.       Minami – A Japanese girl (as well) she’s such a cutie ~

I’ve made many “friends” But, not only that.. of course, I’ve attended class, gotten to know these people, and .. stuff.

I’ve .. fallen in love. 

Yes, you read correctly. I’ve fallen in love.

-          With a Japanese guy.

His name is .. I’ll keep it private, for the best I guess, but I refer to him as T-chan (or Kun) *

Stats;

v  Age: 21 (Turned last July)

v  Height: .. I think about 170cm, he’s a bit (NOT MUCH) taller than me

v  Handsome; Adorable; Sexy – aka. Out of my League. FOSHO

v  Wears glasses and/or contacts

v  Is skinny (high metabolism, like A BITCH)

v  Reminds me of a cat.. – Tends to sleep; a lot (He does cat like things sometimes)

v  Lip biter – Hello sexy. 

-The list is pretty endless, but, let me tell you the things that really (I think) made me fall for him.

His smile..
His laugh..
His eye smiles..
His kind, silent, quiet but, light personality.
He can be funny, and make others laugh, if not he makes me smile. Like a silly 8 y.o

I’m sure I’ve fallen.. hard, so does Kizuku say, liking someone in his mind is like being  inlove with the person.

But, all of those feelings will be dedicated in another blog post.. (entry)

SUZUKU 

(The Japanese people are improving my own Japanese and I should be refreshing my Thai, FACK)

I moved from my small awesome blue apartment into .. bum bum bum

Amarin Mansion! (。。。which was just 10 minutes from my old place, OTL)

And Haruka-chan (Nee-chan would be weird.. they all feel like I’m same age as them.. like 20/21+), is my lovely roommate! Which makes this apartment cheaper than my old one! By almost 2000 baht! Which is good. Very good. //cough cough

But, apartment is kicking, and not just that mostly ‘everyone’ lives here! (Including T-chan) Almost all of the exchange students/foreign lives here or at 3J~ Which is good, then it feels like a dorm again<3 Meeh what will I do when I go back to DK, TT TT, I have no idea, though I promised to live with my mother for a while so, I guess I have time to think, and she’s moving anyway – In the meantime I’m here of course.

But, of course in my journey of cool, and awesome shit, there’s dark clouds everywhere; literally speaking as well, it is the rainy season here, WHAT A GREAT JOKE MHAHAHHAH. 

But, no.

I have money problems like for example; I live of instant noodles, and cheap snacks. Or technically I spend my whatsoever leftover money I had in spare to buy all of the cheapest shit (food, I’m sorry) I could get just to have something to feed on. Even with my diet obsession and near starvation mania I know it doesn’t help so, shhhhhh- I don’t. Living on snacks, white bread – Is defiantly killing my stomach TT TT Like so much I could just die. Eating corn chips as typing atm. Shit so hungry.. (eating so many empty carbs I’m going to boycott myself ) .. And I’m tending to extreme options.. trust me, if you know me you know how bad it’s going – or rather, “it can go” ugh..

Sadly money, my feelings and yeah those 2 things pretty much attacks my brain so much I have difficulties pulling myself together for everything else, like being happy, it seems like its wrong for me to even be.. trouble trouble go away please. THE DOOR IS THERE GOOOOOO

But, also I’ve just 2 good things to mention before I add a closure to this entry and spam you with a few more before I bury my head in my text box, make my hand burn and finger tips bleed for my midterms!

I got a hair cut!

My uncle is setting up a model shoot for me, isn’t that interesting? ~

Also got a package from Singapore~ And some stuff from Denmark!

I’m sorry for lack of photos but, stay turned! They’ll come!!

Byebye~

ITS AUGUST

.. And I'm still here. lol. It's still just barely 5 pass 12(PM) but, the, plan have been changed, or just pushed ahead with 1 day, and we leave early in the morning instead, which is fine with me, then I can still get things done tomorrow, so plan wont be toooooo pushed since time is beginning to run out e_e

- Still trying to figure out how I'll put the design up and font and everything, it's so bothersome, I should be working on different stuff like my body lol.

We have to get our photo taken on Thursday for the ID card.. and of course I just happen to have a mutant on my chin for the first time the last 3 months I have a pimple - what is this evil?! Not that I'm the most feminine and such but, it hurts and it's so red ;~~~~; Painful shit, I didn't knew TT^TT

As we now have entered August, I have set a goal already! If I manage to lose 2+ kg by Sep I'll go to a spa resort :3 I really want to try, but I want to earn it! ㅋㅋㅋ Limiting my food budget to grocery shopping organic and greens will add to my savings ~ So I'll have money to buy stuff I want, like Dr Dre headphones!! I want those pretty badass' <3

Ain't they breathtaking? - lol, I should have used more pro pictures to charm you ~ but, Ji Yong should do the trick am I right? Don't go home baby<3

I might be a tad greedy but, I want the plug-ins AND the big heavy Beats Q3Q They are too dreamy for me  not wanting to smooch them all over~ And I'm a really cheapy person, who hates using money and not really the brand suckr typer but, these. these - I can't help getting an eargasm when people tell me to try them out! I NEED THEM Lol, they need me HAHAHAHA

Oh, a sad thing - My mp3 have reached it's limit, and not only that but, it's broken .__. Do bad luck like to lick my butt all the time? D: I'll turn it all around by this month, you hear me August!! ILL MAKE YOU MAH BIATCH OK.

Have everyone heard about the "tvN Kpop Star Hunt" ? Are you ready for K-Pop Star Hunt?

"Cube Entertainment to find their next trainee through “K-Pop Star Hunt” audition program"

"Cube Ent to find their next trainee .."

Cube Entertainment is a company started out under JYP, it started up in 2008 and is a minor company, but with strong artists! Such as;

4Minute, B2ST & G.NA  - And should also have the other girl group "A Pink" But, I'm not a big info site on Cube Ent :3

Sadly I have no idea who the other guy is...


And they are coming to Thailand as well, and well I'm thinking about joining, I'm no angel when it comes to singing, I have a low voice and rapping might appeal more to me, and I like it :3
But, they require a "Dance-and-song" cover so technically a live like on M!countdown, Music Core & (My fave) Inkigayo~ But, I can't do a girl dance since my voice just doesn't fit, and I can't .. just blah blah >u< So I'm doing/trying to do Cry by MBLAQ - They are under JTuneCamp CEO is Rain if you may know him (As a bad boy~ Imma be a bad boy~) I like that song a lot! And the rap is nice :3 And I like the moves muhahahahaha.

It might seem stupid, since I'm not 100%, or 100% Asian for that matter.. and well, I'm no super talented kick ass kid from the mountains nor am I a stunning face like Nichkhun -__-' But, no harm in trying right? even though just trying will give me hate since I'm half lol

But, I wont give up! And this might be a chance, who knows, but even if I fail I'll hold my head held high and move forward - 1 set back wont stop me! QwQ OK.

I think that's it for now, I might blog again later tomorrow if I can find the time, or else I'll give one last pip tonight, before I disappear for a while.

Cya cya~