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Jep..

Well it's been a while since last post, hasn't it?

Lots of things have build up just after the last post, to summarize in shortness about something I want to say~

First I made this blog, to make a journal over my diet. One out of many.
Then it just went with getting complains I couldn't tell anybody out, which was good!
Also writing about my goals felt good, and everytime I would waver I could always turn to my blog and think "There's one at least, just one person out there who's read this, she/he knows what I'm doing, or trying" Even though I can't say I'm letting the person down, I don't want to let myself down and give a bad impression on the reader, I'm just happy I got at least one reader<3

I didn't celebrate Christmas, nor New Years.. not really.. I felt so sad saying that to my roommates when they asked, since they of course had a blast with their friends and family, but I'm happy for them<3

Also my birthday was yesterday, the only thing different about the day would be that people who never talk to me, actually congratulated me, which I guess - was good? .. Heeh, I got a presents from my now ex-roomie, we don't even talk much anymore, feels like everyone is really just slipping away from me, but that's where a fresh start might be good?

Good news!
I've finally found a place at school with big enough mirrors so I can practice dance, since it doesn't seem like the so called dance room we're gotten at school is ever going to get the freaking mirrors. It saddens me, but nothing I can do about it.

I've moved into the new dorm house! It's like a hotel, the beds are so soft, and everything is new! We got our own bathroom INSIDE OF OUR ROOM. It's freaking awesome, though the water is too hot, and it stops after 10 secs... and we can't adjust it to a warmth we like ourselves.. sadly.

I've gotten a PowerHop, a workout hula hop ring from my mother, I know it kinda says what she wishes to do with it.. It bugs me, but she does call me fat, so seeing she's trying to do something about it well.. yeah it's our relationship then!

I've found the perfect college! And I might be attending it as well! Per semester it's only 15,000 baht! In Danish krone's it's around 3500-5000, so it's not much! And I already have for 1 semester myself~ Gotta keep saving, working and selling!

Also I'm going to Thailand for vacation on the 27th-28th of June<3

Did I mention that the college is in Thailand, Bangkok? Hopefully I'll get in!

..Bad news. Why is there always bad news? ugh..

I'm behind with my years project.. I can't seem to be able to make it in time.. It's so important but, it's a project we have been giving ONLY to work in our FREETIME we aren't allowed to do it in class or free period, due to all the exams homework we are starting to get it's not possible to work much on the project, I'm scared and really just disappointed in myself, seriously T__T

My friend couldn't come and take pictures for my project as in concept photo's.. So I'm even more behind now.. fml.

My room here at home are too small to practice dance! QAQ And not only that! My mom have forbidden me to move our "big" mirror down to the floor so I can see atleast a little of what I'm doing.. aish! D:

Since exams preparation is taking up so much of my time I don't have time to review on the Korean I've learned.. nor to practice more, or even start working on my Thai! Aish..

I've gained weight on my face, gotten MALE arm muscles.. and well bigger calf muscles.. being working out too much huh? Yeah maybe.. in Tae kwon do we do too much boxer focused workout so my muscles have become bigger.. I don't lose weight or slim down, I'm just becoming more buff and getting a bigger face. I hate it!

We have musical next month, so the auditions are in next week, again a day we wont have time for the year's project! ARGH.

Is kinda falling back into a track of bulimic state again.. it's so wrong , I know! I KNOW! But,.. first time I did it in this week.. I felt, like .. good about it, like it wasn't wrong and more .. right to do than diet ._. and since diet doesn't help really.. I dunno what to do! Since I looked back on old pics JUST FROM LAST YEAR, I had such a nice waist.. and thing pale arms.. I miss that.. and I've become obsessed with ulzzangs (From Korea/Around the globe) I've start an even more extreme goal to myself.. And I know it's wrong, and everything takes TIME. But, my mind wont let things take time.. since I'm a stress person (so my teacher calls me..) if  don't see results by a week, I go extreme.. I hate myself so much for thinking like that! QAQ.

There's other stuff too, but don't want to drown the blog in negatives and bad stuff..

Thanks for reading! I know it was plain, but next I'll update about my project, how it went and picture during the thing! - Bye~

2011 Jan-Jun Official Dance list!

Yes! Anneyonghaseyo! I've made my dance list/dance covers for these (Jan-Jun) 6 months to come!

If I'm lucky I'm starting on a dance class in Varde this Thursday, or else I can start next week.. But, nevertheless not the issue now! I'm just exited :DD 

The year started off pretty good! Even though I didn't really celebrate it or anything (went to bed 3-4 hours before 00:00 lol) and got up at school at Sunday (wasn't that motivated due to the 3-4 hour long trip down there T___T) Monday was great! If we see through the project we are having now (I'm not that into our group TT_TT) the day was awesome! WE HAD TAE KWON DO OH YEAH, it was nice - We are going to play with knifes, nunchakus (spelled correctly? - oh, well ninja stuff), boxing (training + use), learn to do air kicks and lots lots more, sadly it's only 10 times TTwTT but, I look forward to next Monday already! FAST FAST COME TO ME. Hahah.

THE LIST! : 

SHINee - Lucifer, Replay & Hello

Brown Eyed Girls -  Abracadabra

MBLAQ - Oh Yeah

Big Bang - Wedding Dress [Taeyang], Heartbreaker [GD], Breathe [GD], I Need a Girl [Taeyang]

KARA - Mr. Mister (The famous "butt" dance!)

SNSD - Run Devil Run (Encouraged :3)

IU - Marshmallow 

Miss A - Breathe (Was told I should try it, so it's like SEMI wanna do - Only going to learn it if I have nothing else to learn, last thing.)

- U can of course add one you think would be nice or something up to you, but just do it if you feel like it xD

Self choreograph ~ With U by Big Bang.

- Yes, I wanna do a self choreographed dance to that song, I love it! And it has a nice beat and in my head I already have a lot of "ideas" and whenever I hear it I always do freestyle! I can't help myself! - Though it seems weird when I'm the only one listing to the song and just dancing .. >: Hahahahah.

Bye 2010 - HELLO 2011! (New Years resolutions)

Ne! Annyeong everyone! Happy New Year! Finally this year is(or already has) taking an end. Goodbye, bye bye 2010 nice meeting ya, glad not to see ya anymore. Hello 2011! Hope you'll be good to me~ (Or else I'll kick your ass..)


New Year resolutions? I've GOT TONS - don't we all?


"First of all, I have to learn Abracadabra and Lucifer (Whole freaking shit! May contain flaws ofc -w- ~) before the New Year, I've promised myself that.
2# Learn to play the guitar proper!
3# Start on vocal lessons and singing
4# Workout twice a day, the morning and in the "evening"
5# Remember to take care of my skin and my body!
6# Diet, diet like crazy!
7# Get over my fobia towards feminine clothes, like dress fx.
8# Save up money to go to Thailand and London in the summer vacation.
9# Stay away from sugary stuff; Candy (I don't even eat it lol), junk food (I hate it :D), cake (I almost never eat it anyway) and ect!.
10# Start to take dance lessons when the New Year starts, like pro lessons, lol.
11# Work on being just a little feminine looking and feel comfortable while doing so
12# Act and practice like life depended on it!"

I said that in my last blog entry. Well what do we know? I actually can Abracadabra now, and Lucifer is a ALMOST but still needs more work on (as well with Abracadabra since I haven't practice on that sexy shirt thingy). But YES I HAVE MOOOOORE. But, that I wont mention now since I have an headache. My warm milk have gone NOT warm and the darm dogs underneath us is going crazy because people are shooting fireworks 6-5 hours before the actual TIME AGGGGGGGGGGGRH.  

Dancing, Planning, Practice - Practice&Practice!

Yeah, so I've being practice (only for an hour sadly though D: ) Abracadabra dance, Abracadabra by Brown Eyed Girls. It's really sexy and hot! I love it, even though it doesn't sound like me to say that about such a song, since it's electro/dance type of music, I just love it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8M6EaKJTPY (This is the stage ver, where they only dance) It's awesome! God, Narsha is just darm sexy and badass! I wish I had her body! She's just stunning! (My opinion :D)

But, I have a long list of dances I want to learn;
Replay by SHINee
Lucifer by SHINee (Learned like the first 30 secs, I'm so proud 8D In one hour!)
Abracadabra (ofc) by Brown Eyed Girls
Wedding Dress by Taeyang
Breathe&Heartbreaker by G-Dragon

They are mainly the ones I wanna work on before this year ends :D I just love them ~

I've being planning this year as much as possible, what I've planned so far is mostly goals of my own and other stuff as well like traveling and such :D Also being planning a little for next year!

First of all, I have to learn Abracadabra and Lucifer (Whole freaking shit! May contain flaws ofc -w- ~) before the New Year, I've promised myself that.
2# Learn to play the guitar proper!
3# Start on vocal lessons and singing
4# Workout twice a day, the morning and in the "evening"
5# Remember to take care of my skin and my body!
6# Diet, diet like crazy!
7# Get over my fobia towards feminine clothes, like dress fx.
8# Save up money to go to Thailand and London in the summer vacation.
9# Stay away from sugary stuff; Candy (I don't even eat it lol), junk food (I hate it :D), cake (I almost never eat it anyway) and ect!.
10# Start to take dance lessons when the New Year starts, like pro lessons, lol.
11# Work on being just a little feminine looking and feel comfortable while doing so
12# Act and practice like life depended on it!

And lots more I don't feel like mentioning right now xD

Dance references links:

Breathe: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGZ1fU8KABc
Replay: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1wT6YyxuL70
Heartbreaker: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPe4JlXlvPo
Lucifer:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovztfpWPo5M
Abracadabra: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o4wJGWcHzVA
Wedding Dress: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gySxavXPJRk

Dreaming, a small light in the future~

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